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Sorry I haven't blogged in awhile. I've been working on my entry to the digital art contest at the anime expo. ^_^ It's not done yet though. And actually the program crashed last night and I lost, like half an hour of work, which annoys me.

And the song Razorblade by Blue October is pwn. Actually, the first two lines of the chorus are just retarded, but the rest of it's cool. :3

Lolol, I don't really have much to say. Oh yeah, Rachel's mom found out I'm going out with her, but Rachel is at her dad's house in Colorado right now. Anyways, she told Rachel she was okay with it, so that's cool.

Lol, my mom is a stalker.

XD I went online today and checked my myspace. I had one message and it was from Bettsi. I was like, "o_O My mom has myspace?" She said soemthing like... I love you but stop cussing. And I was like, "Hey, I don't mind you being here, but I don't want to change my page." Anyways, that was weird.

And then I checked my email and I got a fictionpress.net review, and it was from Dollmaker, which is one of my mom's usernames. And it was like, Ooohhhhh, how awesome, you rock, sort of thing. XD 's all very encouraging and momly. Actually, she may have meant it. o-o I've decided that my mom is an internet stalker though. XD

OH and btw, my parents steal from hobos. XDDD They found tent poles by a hobo's shopping cart but since they didn't see the hobo around they stole the poles. How cruel. X3

I love robots ect.

I LOVE ROBOTS. I love robots, Asian ball jointed dolls, certain other dolls (like the composition doll I have), mechas, androids, crash test dummies, those plastic surgeon dolls, manikins, ect. I love the cd Mechanical Animals by Marilyn Manson, and the theme song of Nip/Tuck. Oh, and Doll Parts, by Hole.

This remix of the Nip/Tuck theme song + music video rocks my socks.

I saw I Robot today. OMG THAT MOVIE IS PIMP. Sunny was a sweetie. Everyone who hasn't seen that should go see it. Another movie I like is AI, which is older. It was very sad and the end was sort of dumb, and it dragged a bit, but it was beautiful. Plus, David was adorable. <33

Ha, my mom doesn't read my blog anymore. I don't care, really. :sniff:

Still missing Rachel, but I've been distracting myself from it lately, + summer school started, and it's as boring as I thought it would be. It's World History. We had to do a poster with six panels illustrating themes from the first six standards. Me and cassy made it more fun by adding yaoi in almost ever panel.

Like, for the industrial revolution, there's a shoe factory in which two guys are making out. For Romans inspiring democracy, we drew a lemonade stand with lemonade crossed out and vote here written below it, with random chibi loves in the corner. XD But this is my favorite. Its three chibis, causing the first world war, which I know nothing about.

Japan: (is a chibi with a kimono and a bowl cut) Japan is the best!
America: (a chibi with no shirt and mohawk) No, America is the best!
Germany: (a constipated looking hitler chibi) Germany is the best and everyone else should die!!!!11
America: Actually, Japan is pretty cute.
Japan: Aw. <3
America: Sex?
Japan: Yes plz.

Oh, and this is what one guy said when he saw the shoe factory yaoi. "WTF are those two girls?!" XDDD

US IDIOTS MAKE SCHOOL FUN.

O.O What just happened?

Well... I just had the most awkward conversation of my life. Beyond that it confuses me, so I wont say anymore about it, but GEEZ.

Jeremy is
a) a player
b) completely manipulative
c) obsessive
d) unpredictable

Actually, he's also a nice, funny, and fun guy. But as far as relationships go, I don't even know what he's going to do next. I would never date him, but unfortunately, I'm sort of connected to him because of Rachel, so I cant stay clear of his relationships. x_X

I don't even know WHATS up. But Rachel needs to get back from Colorado soon, because I can't be confused for both of us forever.

BLAH

Rapidshare hates Po-Ju fans and non premium user. Maximum daily downloads INDEED. Oh, yeah, pay a ton of money or wait 68 minutes. (why 68? Did it start at 69? I don't think there was a long enough time lapse to be 70. Lol? No, not lol, I'm mad at them.)

Oh well, you know what? ROD (Read or Die) is the coolest anime ever.

I'm going camping tomorrow. BLAH BLAH camping. and then on Monday I have summer school. BLAH BLAH summer school. I flunk at life. Oh, I am so tired right now it's not even funny. Toodles.

Lolz

Lolz, Rachel's a mess. She wants to go out with me and Jeremy wont leave her alone, so she also wants to go out with him. I should just kick him in the nuts. Instead, I just roll my eyes, and say, "Oh, whatever. If you'll stay with me you can cheat with him." XD

She's in Colorado anyways. She'll be over me by the time she gets back. :P I'm used to disappointment, and Jeremy is just too hard to compete with.

I did some stuff and said goodbye

AUUUUUU. :SOB: Rachel left for Colorado today. She came over for a couple hours, and so did Jeremy. (he still likes her. I'm torn between being defensive against him and feeling bad for him) We messed around and talked about stuff. It was a pretty good goodbye. Rachel called me from her cellphone like ten minutes after they both left and said she missed me already, and warned me not to go straight over the summer. T_T Of course I wont.

On a lighter note, I went to the mall with my dad. :3 I had to get sandals, so I did, and we have food there, and walked around and stuff. And I bought the whole series of Gankutsuou! :SPAZJOY: Except that as they were closing up I realized that I had one, two, three, and one. X_X So we're gonna go to the other mall tomorrow and get the fourth one, and I'm gonna get my ears and maybe my eyebrow pierced.

My dad's cool. He just put highlights in my hair. I gotta wash the stuff out soon. ^_^

And I drew this. It's me, if, like, I looked cooler. XD

Last Day

Last day of school, we're all probably gonna go swimming in Sara's pool this afternoon. :3 Then after today, Rachel will be here for one more day, and then she leaves on Wednesday. (Yes, it WAS going to be Thursday) Omg, noooo. x_X

:deep breath:

I drew this stuff for myspace. Actually the android was random. It's me. :3

Ohhh Day in the Zone

Went to a concert thing with Rachel. It was Day in the Zone, and I saw, um... lots of bands. Ringside, Switchfoot, the lead singer of Creed, oh MAN he was good. And... um... They had a really popular one but I don't remember because we were tired and started walking to out pick-up spot. XD We liked Switchfoot best.

We ate a ton of ice cream and got free signed cds of some unknown band called Sex on Sunday. Gotta see if they're any good. I clung to Rachel for like the whole day. XD Hope I'm not caring her off like Jeremy did.

Men are like dogs, you can scruff them up and do whatever and they just wag their tails and act like big dorks. With a girl, you inch too close or touch them wrong on a bad day and they're up on the refridgerator and you're SOL. XD That was, I believe, an Adam Corolla anology that Nikki reminded me of when I was moping about something Rachel said. It's so true.

OH! And I did up my Myspace profile again. :3 Here's the picture I drew for the About Me section. It's pimp. I drew my unsightly moles. XD

Oh... okay.

Okay, well. I like poetry. Actually. I LOVE poetry. I would like to write poetry all over my body and memorize all the poetry in the world.

Here's where I post my poetry.

It is mostly love poems. Even On a Tiny Digital Screen, which is a love poem underneath a description. I can't explain it better than that.

I am the dorkiest gayest person ever.

Amanda, DO NOT tell Rachel about the poetry. She's always is embarrassed and annoyed when Jeremy writes emo love poetry to her. Mine is tasteful, but I still don't want to risk her disapproval.

Btw, I know this is all sort of random. But NOBODY READS THIS JOURNAL except for maybe my mom and Amanda, so that's okay. if anyone is annoyed that I stopped drawing lately, well, LOL. I drew this as a joke for my friend Sara, who has a really dumb sense of humor, which is why we love her.

-rolls in joy-

Yes, well. Until Rachel has to go to Colorado I think I'll be so happy it could nearly be considered a medical problem. I haven't been this happy in a long time.

Sorry I haven't been drawing lately. I promise, there will be a lot of art while I have nothing to do over the summer. See, Amanda lives across a street she wont cross, and Rachel will be gone, and Sara probably won't come over a lot. So I'll have time, which is maybe good for me. :3

Still, I'll be lonely.... :sigh:

:3 Cute Doodle

Cute little doodle I did while I should be doing more important things, for someone's myspace comments. I'll bet you wanna know why the kitties are, don't you? I'll bet all none of you are DYING to know, huh? Lols. Okay well, I'll tell you. The froggy one is Rachel (R for Rachel or Ramen) and the other kitty is me (V for Vienna or.. I dunno... On short notice I can only think of one other thing that starts with a V and I don't want my V to stand for it. XD)

Anyways, enjoy it's uber-cuteness.

-FLAIL-

OMG I'M SO HAPPY BUT I WON'T SAY WHY LOLS. :3

The Joys of Being Unrequited

I have been reading poetry. I insist ferociously that I hate poetry (except for what some of my friends write, even though theirs is usually the worst.) and so I feel like I'm betraying myself. I have also been WRITING poetry, and that makes me feel like throwing up.


The Joys of Being Unrequited
a poem by Vienna

The thing about a clingy case of unrequited love,
is that it's aching, long and lonely, but also sweet because,
it slides along without a sound, free of clashes and of change,
the turning, burning ups and downs, the awkwardness and shame.

Real love tends to sweep you up, just to let you down,
haggard places leave you lying, dying on the ground.
But when your love is pure and true and also quite one-sided,
you'll learn to love the coves and slopes of lonliness like I did.

You see their face and think how great together you could be,
scenes of romance in your mind, of joy and harmony.
Throughout the day you do recall the laughter and their smile,
every nuance of their voice, loving all the while.

A relationship cannot compare it's sweeping, senseless rush,
to the wistful, tender slow burn of a hopeless crush.
Even though you pine and moan and wait for their phone call,
isn't it better to love so sad than to never love at all?

Happy 6/6/6!

I think I might go around groping my friends today and saying the devil made me do it. XD Lol, or probably not. They would freak out though.

Also, I would very much like to put a pillow under my shirt and go around having conversations about my unborn child. And then I'll be like, "Oh, yes, we're going to have the baby shower in a week, I just cant wait. I've already started picking out names... ect ect..." and then I'll pull the pillow out like I just noticed it and say, "Oh, that's right. I'm delusional. I must have been having a moment. Sorry." Then smile apologetically and walk away.

My teacher made me label all the layers on my Design Final. x_X There were SO MANY of them. I'm done now though. Also, Ashley isn't here today. Not like she usually is. XD

I only notice today because for some reason I dreamed about her last night. o.O It was weird. All I really remember is that she liked Classical music and I kept saying stupid stuff like, "Oh, um, I don't like, know the names and stuff, but I like to listen to it," yada yada, and for some reason, she couldn't tell that I was being a totalty retarded nutcase. XD And I couldn't figure out why she was even talking to me. Dreams are so weird.

EDIT: Lol, actually she showed up halfway through the period. :3

MY LAYOUT PWNS YOUR FACE

:SCREAMFLAILS: You guys! The transparency works! I spent HOURS trying to make the tables transparent and it finally worked! I love my new layout. It pwns your face.

The background is © the url I added to my blog description, but obviously my Broken Doll picture was added to it by me. Because I drew it. XD The transparency is partly from some forum site, partly from them, partly from me. That's why it took hours. x_X

I should finish Antinon's birthday art now, if I can get down off the high of SUCCESS. :hugs self:

i hate people.

before I forget, everyone who has myspace should go add me. All zero of you who read this blog. XD My profile, right here. Now go.

Okay, but the main thing is, my Deviantart friends make me hate people so much. Some people know I have an art gallery on Deviantart (shameless plug for myself) and I have some people I met there. They're nice people, and I love them, deep down, but Oh. My. God.

They always either comment too much and drown me in things I need to answer, or comment hardly at all, leaving me wondering even if they love me. Or they ask for weird art requests that I can never say no to, or they can't tell if my chracters are goys or girls and I never have the heart to correct them.

But no more moping. Here is drawings.

Gerard Way, lead singer of My Chemical Romance. :3



My Computer Design final. Sorry it's tiny, the size proportions on my school comp are different than mine at home. ^_^;



Btw, THIS IS TEH FUNNIEST THING EVER. Funnier if you liek the anime One Piece, but it's hilarious even if you don't. XD

ROLLS IN MISERY

I'm bored and there's nothing to do and I feel like poop.

Doctor Who :3

Omg, I love that show so intensely it hurts. And I do mean the new version, not the old one. I'd have liked to have seen that one too, but alas, I missed out.

I love the Doctor/Rose. They're so cute, and Rose is one of the few female characters in any show that I like. (the others are Sam Carter from Stargate and Fuu from Samurai Champloo) I always feel bad when something bad happens to her, and that's VERY unlike me. =0 But she's so cool and awesome and she and the Doctor should have some wicked awesome children.

THIS part sounds a little bit more like me. Now, maybe I'm just tired, but does Jack flirt with men? o.O Now I'm thinking about it and I can remember him doing it all the time. I think he's blatantly and canonically bi-sexual. XD OH CRAP HE IS. AND NOW I DON'T HAVE ANYONE TO SLASH HIM WITH. STUPID ROSE, WHY MUST I LOVE YOU SO MUCH?

I'm sad now because I'm the worst slasher in the world for not noticing. But also happy because I can make up some stupid original character guy for jack now. XD -grumbles- I could never make up someone better than the doctor though... But this isn't being quite fair to me. I remember in the second part of Empty Child (this think that's what the episode was called) he was reminiscing over his rendezvous with some couple. And I was like, "=0 Oh lawd, with a man?" But canonical yaoi goes over my head, in a sort of "too good to be true" fashion. Characters who slash themselves. Who knew? XD

New layout!

It took me so many hours I don't even want to say. XD I saw an educational video about crash test dummies in Drivers Ed and now I can't stop drawing them! And I'm addicted to the cd Mechanical Animals by Marilyn Manson, so I also keep drawing cell phones and computers as robot people.

Maybe I'll scan some later. Really, I should be working on Antinon's birthday present (which is in seven days. o.O).

>_> ...

I wish I had sent THIS into the year book instead of them managing to get a hold of that abstract CRAP I wrote about shadows for a dumb assignment. >_>

We are the lineart,
can you color us in?
In crayons, in acrylics,
in old marker pens?

Color me sinful,
and color him gray,
color her blessed,
or erase her away.

Our colors will bleed
into our loved ones.
My friends and my lovers,
her brothers, her sons.

So dip in the paintbrush,
come on, color me sinful,
I'll take him down with me,
I'll color him criminal.

so think it through first,
and color me gorgous,
pretty and bright,
my compassion enormous.

I can color them lovely
as you colored me,
but you make the first mark,
so what will it be?

by Carmen Aistrup.

And that's me. Oh yeah. XD

But seriously... they found some crappy abstract poem-prose thing I had to do during a chicken-ess nature hike my art teacher made us do. I hate nature, so I wrote about our shadows. AND IT WAS CRAP. And they were like, ohhh, this is so deep, lets put it int he yearbook and have it take up HALF OF THE FIRST PAGE. x_X I was going to have them take this instead, but I forgot. And the yearbook just came out. And they spelled my last name as Austrup! :cries:

Thank god I didn't but their stupid overpriced book of LIES and misspelled names.