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THIS ISNT MY BLOG LOL

2007-04-09T22:28:00.000-07:00

MY NEW BLOG

also neglected. XD;

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2006-09-19T20:02:00.000-07:00

4 illustration Friday. it's a puffer fish. C:

TT____TT

2006-08-07T12:45:00.000-07:00

I just don't know what to do when my friends are depressed or hurt. I just don't know how to make the right words of sympathy come out of my face. I don't know how to make feelings into words like some strange alchemist. It just doesn't want to come out.

Sometimes I end up sounding useless and petty. Or sometimes I end up sounding angry... like at Jeremy. I just cant help, most of the time.

Sorry.

WHO WANTS TO BE A SUPERHERO?

2006-08-04T08:11:00.000-07:00

I DO OMG.

Lols. I say that tv show last night... it was really funny and awesome. I want to draw Creature, and Feedback, and... who was that one guy? Major Victory? I mean the guy who was really funny because he exagerated everything like a superhero. He say that crying little girl looking for her mother, and he said, WHO IS THIS LITTLE GIRLS MOTHER? Then he saw the office sign and to take her there, he's like, "Here, jump into my arms." It was hilarious. XD

My and my mom was sooooo happy to see Iron whatever get booted. The twist at the end was crazy awesome too though. =x

Ner nernern ner STEREOACTIVE! Lol it's me. As a superhero.

LOOOOL. Somebody commented on my blog to tell me
"Reminder:
The new season of Noah's Arc premieres on Logo on August 9th! And they will sneak preview the first episode on the logo website on Tuesday, August 8th- same day the dvd box set of season 1 hits stores.
So tune in!!!"

..... yeah. Yeah, actually I am going to watch it. XD I'm such a dork. I thought I would maybe let it go to save face but, if somebody took a few seconds out of their day to tell me this, I think I will watch it. Lol.

Lion king 2

2006-08-02T22:50:00.000-07:00

<3333 I just re-watched Lion King 2, Simba's Pride for the first time in nearly... half a year, maybe? it was really good. I laughed, I cried, I ran out to tell my mom about stuff about it four times. (that means it's REALLY good)

Kovu is adorable, and I even like Kiara, even though she's a little too perfect. I cried when Nuka died. I want the soundtrack. Those are some amazing songs, maybe even better than the first one, and I have the soundtrack for that.

(randomly, I've fallen in love with the Axel/Roxas pairing from Kingdom hearts 2. Man, they are like, so canon. Especially on Axel's side. He's so totally like omg roxas marry me lol. Okay well maybe not that but... you have to play the game to know. lol I didn't play the game, but I watched all the slashy bits at Sara's house and on Youtube.)

I drew some crappy lions. The first two are Keiji and Jeep, and the third one is Kovu and Kiara.

self-evaluation

2006-07-31T13:35:00.000-07:00

You know what I've been realizing lately? When I step back, and look at myself, I'm not a good person. Like Larry, from the Stand, I "ain't no nice guy."

I lash out. In defense, or just in anger, or sadness, or pretty much anything. So, what I'm saying is, I'm mean. All the time. Also, I would probably be ecstatic if everyone in the whole world fell in love with me so I could break their hearts. I could be my own therapist, because I know for a fact that my problem is that I judge my value by people I've rejected, like a collage.

This is a very undesirable trait in a person, I don't think I need to point out.

I have no internal drive to do anything. My mom doesn't believe this even though I tried to tell her. I don't draw because I love drawing. I do enjoy drawing, about half the time, but only about as much as I like reading or eating or watching tv. The reason I draw is that I want to get good enough that people love my art the way I love Humon or Klar's art. I want to get so many comments that I don't have to answer them. How terrible is that?

I play up on my addictions and my fandoms for attention. Okay, so, I do love yaoi/shota/anime. But I'm not content to just love those things, and I wouldn't care half as much, except that I have the added hobby of making sure everyone knows about it. When someone thinks shota-complex, I want them to think CARMEN. I want to monopolize the subjects I love in everybody's mind so I'm never forgotten or expendable. I don't grow in peoples minds as a person, I make them see me as a character.

I think of all the negative things about everyone I know, even the people I love. If they're manipulative, whiny, suck-ups, fake, slow, or self-centered, I've got it down on my mental card for them and chances are I've gossiped about it behind their back, or even told it to their face when I was angry. Strangely, I never fight and I rarely argue, but I have a mean streak a mile wide. And now the whole world knows about it.

If you're wondering why I'm doing this, YES, I am trying to convince everyone that I'm a terrible person and that nobody should be my friend. It'll save you from a lot of crap. I feel I owe it to anyone who knows me to know the truth about. Which is that I suck.

End self-evaluation.

...... yeah, okay, I'm still mad.

2006-07-14T20:09:00.000-07:00

I exaggerated on a lot of this. I just needed to vent, or else I wouldn't be able to talk to her without being angry anymore. This took forever though.... I kind of like it.

[EDIT]

I thought this was funny. This is from March 5th, 2005. That's about a year and three months ago. A VERY OLD self portrait.

This is from about a week and a half ago. The new and (very much?) improved self portrait. Okay, it's me as a boy... but the same principle applies.

The lazies.

2006-07-13T18:25:00.000-07:00

I had a case of the lazies today. I came from from Summer School intending to do the dragon picture, but I scanned another picture instead, was going to color it, but then I got distracted and watched a cartoon I downloaded on Limewire. (it was Clerks btw. C:) Eventually I colored the picture I scanned though. And here it is. And also here are some other pictures I drew.

I wish I could undo that last one. I mean, take back all the frickin hours I spent on it. The person I drew it for ignored me for three days and when she finally commented on it, she was sort of but not really enthusiastic. And I was like... "Um, you're welcome. ....Also eff you in the a...." I don't think I'll draw anything for her again, because she's really sucky.

Omg.

2006-07-06T17:51:00.000-07:00

My dad nags me about the most retarded things. Like when we went camping and he lectured me about not getting pregnant as a teenager, even though I'm just about the gayest person I know. And today, he nagged me not to leave Rocky Horror Picture Show out where my brothers can get it. I told him that they saw the case and thought it looked stupid. He's like, "But Max is only ten, those images might confuse him."

Do you ever get that internal dialog inside your head of what you really WANT to say that goes alongside what you're actually saying? I do, all the time.

Inside: Omg, shut your face, seeing a guy in drag isn't going to turn your precious little boy into a fag. Lol.
Outside: He saw the case, and said it looked stupid. Don't worry.

Dad: I'm trying to nag nicely.

Inside: Well, it's retarded, so don't tag at all, you prick.
Outside: But it doesn't matter.

Mom: Just agree with him.

Inside: Why doesn't he just agree with me? He's not even worried about a real problem! He needs to get a hobby or something!
Outside: Fine. I agree.

Aaaand... I drew stuff.

btw, the first one is me as a boy. o yah, i bleached my hair, and it does look sort of like that now. the second one is Loor giving Lune a belly rub and the last one is just doodles. :3

Wow, you learn something new every day.

2006-07-01T02:34:00.000-07:00

Like today. Apparently Spiderman was a victom of child molesation. O___O No, srsly.

O lols blog

2006-06-28T07:08:00.000-07:00

Sorry I haven't blogged in awhile. I've been working on my entry to the digital art contest at the anime expo. ^_^ It's not done yet though. And actually the program crashed last night and I lost, like half an hour of work, which annoys me.

And the song Razorblade by Blue October is pwn. Actually, the first two lines of the chorus are just retarded, but the rest of it's cool. :3

Lolol, I don't really have much to say. Oh yeah, Rachel's mom found out I'm going out with her, but Rachel is at her dad's house in Colorado right now. Anyways, she told Rachel she was okay with it, so that's cool.

Lol, my mom is a stalker.

2006-06-21T14:09:00.000-07:00

XD I went online today and checked my myspace. I had one message and it was from Bettsi. I was like, "o_O My mom has myspace?" She said soemthing like... I love you but stop cussing. And I was like, "Hey, I don't mind you being here, but I don't want to change my page." Anyways, that was weird.

And then I checked my email and I got a fictionpress.net review, and it was from Dollmaker, which is one of my mom's usernames. And it was like, Ooohhhhh, how awesome, you rock, sort of thing. XD 's all very encouraging and momly. Actually, she may have meant it. o-o I've decided that my mom is an internet stalker though. XD

OH and btw, my parents steal from hobos. XDDD They found tent poles by a hobo's shopping cart but since they didn't see the hobo around they stole the poles. How cruel. X3

I love robots ect.

2006-06-19T23:59:00.000-07:00

I LOVE ROBOTS. I love robots, Asian ball jointed dolls, certain other dolls (like the composition doll I have), mechas, androids, crash test dummies, those plastic surgeon dolls, manikins, ect. I love the cd Mechanical Animals by Marilyn Manson, and the theme song of Nip/Tuck. Oh, and Doll Parts, by Hole.

This remix of the Nip/Tuck theme song + music video rocks my socks.

I saw I Robot today. OMG THAT MOVIE IS PIMP. Sunny was a sweetie. Everyone who hasn't seen that should go see it. Another movie I like is AI, which is older. It was very sad and the end was sort of dumb, and it dragged a bit, but it was beautiful. Plus, David was adorable. <33

Ha, my mom doesn't read my blog anymore. I don't care, really. :sniff:

Still missing Rachel, but I've been distracting myself from it lately, + summer school started, and it's as boring as I thought it would be. It's World History. We had to do a poster with six panels illustrating themes from the first six standards. Me and cassy made it more fun by adding yaoi in almost ever panel.

Like, for the industrial revolution, there's a shoe factory in which two guys are making out. For Romans inspiring democracy, we drew a lemonade stand with lemonade crossed out and vote here written below it, with random chibi loves in the corner. XD But this is my favorite. Its three chibis, causing the first world war, which I know nothing about.

Japan: (is a chibi with a kimono and a bowl cut) Japan is the best!
America: (a chibi with no shirt and mohawk) No, America is the best!
Germany: (a constipated looking hitler chibi) Germany is the best and everyone else should die!!!!11
America: Actually, Japan is pretty cute.
Japan: Aw. <3
America: Sex?
Japan: Yes plz.

Oh, and this is what one guy said when he saw the shoe factory yaoi. "WTF are those two girls?!" XDDD

US IDIOTS MAKE SCHOOL FUN.

O.O What just happened?

2006-06-18T19:42:00.000-07:00

Well... I just had the most awkward conversation of my life. Beyond that it confuses me, so I wont say anymore about it, but GEEZ.

Jeremy is
a) a player
b) completely manipulative
c) obsessive
d) unpredictable

Actually, he's also a nice, funny, and fun guy. But as far as relationships go, I don't even know what he's going to do next. I would never date him, but unfortunately, I'm sort of connected to him because of Rachel, so I cant stay clear of his relationships. x_X

I don't even know WHATS up. But Rachel needs to get back from Colorado soon, because I can't be confused for both of us forever.

BLAH

2006-06-16T23:13:00.000-07:00

Rapidshare hates Po-Ju fans and non premium user. Maximum daily downloads INDEED. Oh, yeah, pay a ton of money or wait 68 minutes. (why 68? Did it start at 69? I don't think there was a long enough time lapse to be 70. Lol? No, not lol, I'm mad at them.)

Oh well, you know what? ROD (Read or Die) is the coolest anime ever.

I'm going camping tomorrow. BLAH BLAH camping. and then on Monday I have summer school. BLAH BLAH summer school. I flunk at life. Oh, I am so tired right now it's not even funny. Toodles.

Lolz

2006-06-15T15:45:00.000-07:00

Lolz, Rachel's a mess. She wants to go out with me and Jeremy wont leave her alone, so she also wants to go out with him. I should just kick him in the nuts. Instead, I just roll my eyes, and say, "Oh, whatever. If you'll stay with me you can cheat with him." XD

She's in Colorado anyways. She'll be over me by the time she gets back. :P I'm used to disappointment, and Jeremy is just too hard to compete with.

I did some stuff and said goodbye

2006-06-14T15:59:00.000-07:00

AUUUUUU. :SOB: Rachel left for Colorado today. She came over for a couple hours, and so did Jeremy. (he still likes her. I'm torn between being defensive against him and feeling bad for him) We messed around and talked about stuff. It was a pretty good goodbye. Rachel called me from her cellphone like ten minutes after they both left and said she missed me already, and warned me not to go straight over the summer. T_T Of course I wont.

On a lighter note, I went to the mall with my dad. :3 I had to get sandals, so I did, and we have food there, and walked around and stuff. And I bought the whole series of Gankutsuou! :SPAZJOY: Except that as they were closing up I realized that I had one, two, three, and one. X_X So we're gonna go to the other mall tomorrow and get the fourth one, and I'm gonna get my ears and maybe my eyebrow pierced.

My dad's cool. He just put highlights in my hair. I gotta wash the stuff out soon. ^_^

And I drew this. It's me, if, like, I looked cooler. XD

Last Day

2006-06-12T07:08:00.000-07:00

Last day of school, we're all probably gonna go swimming in Sara's pool this afternoon. :3 Then after today, Rachel will be here for one more day, and then she leaves on Wednesday. (Yes, it WAS going to be Thursday) Omg, noooo. x_X

:deep breath:

I drew this stuff for myspace. Actually the android was random. It's me. :3

Ohhh Day in the Zone

2006-06-11T22:52:00.000-07:00

Went to a concert thing with Rachel. It was Day in the Zone, and I saw, um... lots of bands. Ringside, Switchfoot, the lead singer of Creed, oh MAN he was good. And... um... They had a really popular one but I don't remember because we were tired and started walking to out pick-up spot. XD We liked Switchfoot best.

We ate a ton of ice cream and got free signed cds of some unknown band called Sex on Sunday. Gotta see if they're any good. I clung to Rachel for like the whole day. XD Hope I'm not caring her off like Jeremy did.

Men are like dogs, you can scruff them up and do whatever and they just wag their tails and act like big dorks. With a girl, you inch too close or touch them wrong on a bad day and they're up on the refridgerator and you're SOL. XD That was, I believe, an Adam Corolla anology that Nikki reminded me of when I was moping about something Rachel said. It's so true.

OH! And I did up my Myspace profile again. :3 Here's the picture I drew for the About Me section. It's pimp. I drew my unsightly moles. XD

Oh... okay.

2006-06-11T00:23:00.000-07:00

Okay, well. I like poetry. Actually. I LOVE poetry. I would like to write poetry all over my body and memorize all the poetry in the world.

Here's where I post my poetry.

It is mostly love poems. Even On a Tiny Digital Screen, which is a love poem underneath a description. I can't explain it better than that.

I am the dorkiest gayest person ever.

Amanda, DO NOT tell Rachel about the poetry. She's always is embarrassed and annoyed when Jeremy writes emo love poetry to her. Mine is tasteful, but I still don't want to risk her disapproval.

Btw, I know this is all sort of random. But NOBODY READS THIS JOURNAL except for maybe my mom and Amanda, so that's okay. if anyone is annoyed that I stopped drawing lately, well, LOL. I drew this as a joke for my friend Sara, who has a really dumb sense of humor, which is why we love her.

-rolls in joy-

2006-06-09T19:17:00.000-07:00

Yes, well. Until Rachel has to go to Colorado I think I'll be so happy it could nearly be considered a medical problem. I haven't been this happy in a long time.

Sorry I haven't been drawing lately. I promise, there will be a lot of art while I have nothing to do over the summer. See, Amanda lives across a street she wont cross, and Rachel will be gone, and Sara probably won't come over a lot. So I'll have time, which is maybe good for me. :3

Still, I'll be lonely.... :sigh:

:3 Cute Doodle

2006-06-08T22:36:00.000-07:00

Cute little doodle I did while I should be doing more important things, for someone's myspace comments. I'll bet you wanna know why the kitties are, don't you? I'll bet all none of you are DYING to know, huh? Lols. Okay well, I'll tell you. The froggy one is Rachel (R for Rachel or Ramen) and the other kitty is me (V for Vienna or.. I dunno... On short notice I can only think of one other thing that starts with a V and I don't want my V to stand for it. XD)

Anyways, enjoy it's uber-cuteness.

-FLAIL-

2006-06-08T19:34:00.000-07:00

OMG I'M SO HAPPY BUT I WON'T SAY WHY LOLS. :3

The Joys of Being Unrequited

2006-06-06T18:20:00.000-07:00

I have been reading poetry. I insist ferociously that I hate poetry (except for what some of my friends write, even though theirs is usually the worst.) and so I feel like I'm betraying myself. I have also been WRITING poetry, and that makes me feel like throwing up.

The Joys of Being Unrequited
a poem by Vienna

The thing about a clingy case of unrequited love,
is that it's aching, long and lonely, but also sweet because,
it slides along without a sound, free of clashes and of change,
the turning, burning ups and downs, the awkwardness and shame.

Real love tends to sweep you up, just to let you down,
haggard places leave you lying, dying on the ground.
But when your love is pure and true and also quite one-sided,
you'll learn to love the coves and slopes of lonliness like I did.

You see their face and think how great together you could be,
scenes of romance in your mind, of joy and harmony.
Throughout the day you do recall the laughter and their smile,
every nuance of their voice, loving all the while.

A relationship cannot compare it's sweeping, senseless rush,
to the wistful, tender slow burn of a hopeless crush.
Even though you pine and moan and wait for their phone call,
isn't it better to love so sad than to never love at all?

Happy 6/6/6!

2006-06-06T10:44:00.000-07:00

I think I might go around groping my friends today and saying the devil made me do it. XD Lol, or probably not. They would freak out though.

Also, I would very much like to put a pillow under my shirt and go around having conversations about my unborn child. And then I'll be like, "Oh, yes, we're going to have the baby shower in a week, I just cant wait. I've already started picking out names... ect ect..." and then I'll pull the pillow out like I just noticed it and say, "Oh, that's right. I'm delusional. I must have been having a moment. Sorry." Then smile apologetically and walk away.

My teacher made me label all the layers on my Design Final. x_X There were SO MANY of them. I'm done now though. Also, Ashley isn't here today. Not like she usually is. XD

I only notice today because for some reason I dreamed about her last night. o.O It was weird. All I really remember is that she liked Classical music and I kept saying stupid stuff like, "Oh, um, I don't like, know the names and stuff, but I like to listen to it," yada yada, and for some reason, she couldn't tell that I was being a totalty retarded nutcase. XD And I couldn't figure out why she was even talking to me. Dreams are so weird.

EDIT: Lol, actually she showed up halfway through the period. :3

MY LAYOUT PWNS YOUR FACE

2006-06-05T22:32:00.000-07:00

:SCREAMFLAILS: You guys! The transparency works! I spent HOURS trying to make the tables transparent and it finally worked! I love my new layout. It pwns your face.

The background is © the url I added to my blog description, but obviously my Broken Doll picture was added to it by me. Because I drew it. XD The transparency is partly from some forum site, partly from them, partly from me. That's why it took hours. x_X

I should finish Antinon's birthday art now, if I can get down off the high of SUCCESS. :hugs self:

i hate people.

2006-06-05T20:03:00.000-07:00

before I forget, everyone who has myspace should go add me. All zero of you who read this blog. XD My profile, right here. Now go.

Okay, but the main thing is, my Deviantart friends make me hate people so much. Some people know I have an art gallery on Deviantart (shameless plug for myself) and I have some people I met there. They're nice people, and I love them, deep down, but Oh. My. God.

They always either comment too much and drown me in things I need to answer, or comment hardly at all, leaving me wondering even if they love me. Or they ask for weird art requests that I can never say no to, or they can't tell if my chracters are goys or girls and I never have the heart to correct them.

But no more moping. Here is drawings.

Gerard Way, lead singer of My Chemical Romance. :3

My Computer Design final. Sorry it's tiny, the size proportions on my school comp are different than mine at home. ^_^;

Btw, THIS IS TEH FUNNIEST THING EVER. Funnier if you liek the anime One Piece, but it's hilarious even if you don't. XD

ROLLS IN MISERY

2006-06-03T13:14:00.000-07:00

I'm bored and there's nothing to do and I feel like poop.

Doctor Who :3

2006-06-03T01:17:00.003-07:00

Omg, I love that show so intensely it hurts. And I do mean the new version, not the old one. I'd have liked to have seen that one too, but alas, I missed out.

I love the Doctor/Rose. They're so cute, and Rose is one of the few female characters in any show that I like. (the others are Sam Carter from Stargate and Fuu from Samurai Champloo) I always feel bad when something bad happens to her, and that's VERY unlike me. =0 But she's so cool and awesome and she and the Doctor should have some wicked awesome children.

THIS part sounds a little bit more like me. Now, maybe I'm just tired, but does Jack flirt with men? o.O Now I'm thinking about it and I can remember him doing it all the time. I think he's blatantly and canonically bi-sexual. XD OH CRAP HE IS. AND NOW I DON'T HAVE ANYONE TO SLASH HIM WITH. STUPID ROSE, WHY MUST I LOVE YOU SO MUCH?

I'm sad now because I'm the worst slasher in the world for not noticing. But also happy because I can make up some stupid original character guy for jack now. XD -grumbles- I could never make up someone better than the doctor though... But this isn't being quite fair to me. I remember in the second part of Empty Child (this think that's what the episode was called) he was reminiscing over his rendezvous with some couple. And I was like, "=0 Oh lawd, with a man?" But canonical yaoi goes over my head, in a sort of "too good to be true" fashion. Characters who slash themselves. Who knew? XD

New layout!

2006-06-02T21:12:00.000-07:00

It took me so many hours I don't even want to say. XD I saw an educational video about crash test dummies in Drivers Ed and now I can't stop drawing them! And I'm addicted to the cd Mechanical Animals by Marilyn Manson, so I also keep drawing cell phones and computers as robot people.

Maybe I'll scan some later. Really, I should be working on Antinon's birthday present (which is in seven days. o.O).

>_> ...

2006-06-01T22:02:00.000-07:00

I wish I had sent THIS into the year book instead of them managing to get a hold of that abstract CRAP I wrote about shadows for a dumb assignment. >_>

We are the lineart,
can you color us in?
In crayons, in acrylics,
in old marker pens?

Color me sinful,
and color him gray,
color her blessed,
or erase her away.

Our colors will bleed
into our loved ones.
My friends and my lovers,
her brothers, her sons.

So dip in the paintbrush,
come on, color me sinful,
I'll take him down with me,
I'll color him criminal.

so think it through first,
and color me gorgous,
pretty and bright,
my compassion enormous.

I can color them lovely
as you colored me,
but you make the first mark,
so what will it be?

by Carmen Aistrup.

And that's me. Oh yeah. XD

But seriously... they found some crappy abstract poem-prose thing I had to do during a chicken-ess nature hike my art teacher made us do. I hate nature, so I wrote about our shadows. AND IT WAS CRAP. And they were like, ohhh, this is so deep, lets put it int he yearbook and have it take up HALF OF THE FIRST PAGE. x_X I was going to have them take this instead, but I forgot. And the yearbook just came out. And they spelled my last name as Austrup! :cries:

Thank god I didn't but their stupid overpriced book of LIES and misspelled names.

MS Paint doodle. :3

2006-05-31T07:20:00.000-07:00

Just some MS Paint doodle. The wobbling (dancing) puffer fish character is © my friend Martha. XD He's fanart. No names on the kitties tho. =0 Some of my friends may catch the colors, but yeah, like they're that observant. :rolls eyes:

Cake.

2006-05-29T20:16:00.000-07:00

Laziest Illustration Friday entry ever. XD

More people and stuff happened.

2006-05-29T18:16:00.000-07:00

I met my uncle Dean and his (husband?) Rick today. It was nice, there was talking, he was cool, ect. I have trouble talking about real life. XD I don't know why. But I drew stuff, so... celebrate. XD

A puffer fish to cheer up my friend Amanda. (she loves puffer fish)

A sorry frog for my friend Rachel. (she loves frogs)

This is Valerio, aka Val(my name for him), or Vallie-chan(Nikki's name for him). He's Brianna's character. Brianna is Nikki's rp partner. Val is not a whore, contrary to popular opinion. :3

W33t!

2006-05-28T00:02:00.000-07:00

My mom and dad got me a tablet for my birthday. :3 HUZZAH! So I drew soemthing dumb, just to prove it. XD

And my mom got me a gorgeous necklace, and my dad smashed a cupcake in my face. >_> And my nices and my sister bought me my favorite shirt EVER. I wanna get a picture of it later.

My new uncle is visiting on Monday! Maybe I already said that... o well... we have to clean tomorow so he thinks we're cleanly people. XD

Evangelion AGAIN

2006-05-27T10:29:00.000-07:00

Today I finally got to see the English subbed episode 24. (how geeky does that make me sound? XD) It was better and sadder than I even thought. ;_;

Screencap of Kaworu's love confession.

Screencap of Shinji's love confession, although it was admitedly after Kaworu dies and he was telling Misato about how he wished he had died instead. (but that would have sucked. x_X)

My mom was in here talking on the phone during the part where Kaworu is about to die. Luckily it wasn't likely to distract her from her conversation. That part is hecka annoying because it draws PAST suspense and turns into a sick form of Chinese water torture. You KNOW it's goign to happen, but when? When?! And then it's like, CRUNCH. Oh. Now.

And on a completely different tone, here's a cute official picture that's been on a calander and a trading card. ^.^

Some stuff happened, people did things, ect.

2006-05-26T23:28:00.000-07:00

Okay, well, my birthday is tomorrow. Yay? Me and my mom and brother went to walmart and I bought a swimsuit FINALLY. I got short shorts and also cute normal shorts. XD And I uctually ENJOYED trying things on. If I hadn't been flailing randomly all the time and talking non-stop, I'd almost be like a different person. XD

AND MY UNCLE IS COMING ON MONDEY. =O It's gonna be hecksa pimp.

My friend Rachel got me the funniest things for my birthday. One is a parental advisory poster for my room. and the other is a pink stuffed rabbit with no arms and a PENIS. XD It's, like, the best gift I've ever gotten. I asked my friend not to get me gifts and the others didn't intend to and Rachel ignored me. I'm not sure whether to be annoyed or be glad because she ignored me WELL. She's so awsome. XD <3

The bad news is that I'm annoyed at Nikki over a drawign I'm supposed to do for her. She's getting all snotty because I haven't finished it, and while we were talking on yim, she's like, "Fine, shut up now, I'm roleplaying." And I was like, ">_> ...... fine." I cant compete. She and her friend Brianna has the cutest, funniest shota/yaoi rps ever. I only feel lucky that she sends me the rp logs. XD

Okay, and to make up for boring you... a photomanip I did. :3 Lyrics from Reptile by NIN.

:joysqueel:

2006-05-24T17:59:00.000-07:00

Despite my impending birthday, I'm happy because I just finished a drawing!

We're all Angels Here.

It's Kowaru and Shinji from Evangelion. <333 The angels thing makes a lot more sense if you've seen the series... I cant even begin to explain it. ^_^; But isn't it adorable? I'm maybe biased because I love these two and it's my own drawing. XD

Also, my computer is fixed, and mty mom bought a new doll. She looks like a baby movie star girl. ^__^ I'll probably post pcitures later.

I'm working on a shojo-ai fairy picture for my internet friend Antinon. :3 It's gonna take awhile because I love her to death and I want it to be really good.

Blaaah.

2006-05-22T18:50:00.000-07:00

My birthday is in five days. I feel kind of... blaaaah. Plus, my computer DIED. So I'm on my mom's laptop, listening to Sum 41 and Dana Winner. (Sum 41 was Rachel's suggestion, Dana Winner may be a vague suicide attempt. XD) And Greenday also. :rocks out in a distinctly geeky way:

Oh, and I put up a hiatus notice on Deviantart. Nobody seemed particularly upset. Lol. I've been sneaking back on there to look up Jack Spicer fanart anyways. HOW GEEKY IS THAT?!

btw, if you don't know (most sane people wont) Jack Spicer is the villain in a dumb cartoon called Xaio Lin Showdown. I think it's a cute show. ^_^; Lawl. My fandoms are so dumb.

I cannot draw worth crap right now. I don't know why. x_X I can kind of draw lions but NOBODY CARES about lions. XD I need more human characters. I think I'm going to go copy art to learn to draw humans better.

Or I might, you know, mope around some more. XD

Yay Rachel! ^_^

2006-05-20T08:05:00.000-07:00

I'm going to the redwood forest this weekend with my friend Rachel and her family. ^___^ She's going to pick me up in like half an hour. It's gonna be so fun. Rachel is one of my newer friends, but she's really cool. I met her at the anime club and we hang out at school now, and she comed over after school a lot.

She likes Naruto, ramen and shota. :3 She's hecksa cool, obviously. I sent her a pic of Naruto and that one guy... old, pervy-ish one... I don't watch the show. My other friends just told me to send it and said, "LOL she'll yell at you now." But instead she's like, "Cool. More? kthnx." LOL. Girl o' me own heart.

Okay, so, I'm sure I have better things to do than type this. XD On a final note, OMG, Nikki got my addicted to Blood Brothers, especially the song 'My First kiss at a Public Execution'. I cant believe I sunk this low. It's SCREAMY music. x_X

EDIT; Randomly, What sound is ".....!"? In anime and stuff it's always got speech bubbles that say that. XD Me and my friends have actualy spent hours trying to make that sound out loud. LOL Yes, we're sad.

Omg, so uuugly.

2006-05-18T22:06:00.000-07:00

Oh well, whatever. It was going to be for the Illustration Friday but I'm so ashamed of the ugliness. You may notice angel girl's resemblance to the Dope Show girl. That's because I'm a freaktard and subconsciously include her in everything I draw. XD Sry. I'll draw something not crappy next time... I cant draw chibis... or girls....

Man, where is the energy COMING from?

2006-05-16T21:30:00.000-07:00

I finished Sarah's (the Sarah I know form Deviantart, not my real life friend Sarah) art request from the four request thingy. This one should have been easy, but it took me all of THIS before I realized I shouldn't color black creatures with coloured pencils. x_X

The lyrics are from Indie Rock and Roll, by the Killers, which is the best song ever. Even better than Marilyn Manson. (omg, yes, I totally turned around on the MM thing, if you recall. I just can't get enough of some of his music. x_X)

Anyways. I'll shut up now. I need something to draw tho. Maybe lions.

Omg, a lot of stuff.

2006-05-15T23:54:00.000-07:00

I've been busy. I did this retarded chain request thing where you get an art request from the person who posted it, and in return you do requests for four more random people. I'm finished one of the requests, nearly done with the second, then I'll work on the third, and no one's filled the fourth slot yet. I don't think anyone will. I wonder how far this thing will carry. Of course, some of the links die because someone breaks the agreement or nobody wants request from them, but it can go pretty far, I think.

Here's what I drew for Antinon. It's Daniel Jackson in a sort-of-scene from The Diary, which is a horribly long, stupid SG1 fic that you don't want to read. Rly. Unless you're hecka insane. XD

And this is a comic I did for me and Antinon's comic series. :3 I dont know if shes doing it still. I just make one every now and then. Anyways, we used to do this to my parakeet all the time. XD

And I drew this last night. XD I dont even like DNAngel. And I doubt this would ever happen in the series. That series is evil. From the third ep I would think this could happen but then everything changed suddenly, and I dont know why. Maybe because Hiwatari had to go away for awhile? Ugh. Well, anyways, I'll call this one, "IN HIWATARI'S DREAMS."

EDIT! Just finished the second request. :3 From my friend Selah, this is Sora and Riku from Kingdom Hearts 2.

T_T

2006-05-13T23:37:00.000-07:00

I have a lot of real like things I could say... I don't want to... Oh wait. My birthday is the 27th. I get to see my new uncle next weekend. I think. Hecksa pimp. But real life is boring so here read about my fandoms. XD

EVANGELION SPOILER THINGY. IF YOU DONT WNAT TO KNOW WHAT HAPPENS, DONT READ THIS. IF YOU'RE READING IT OUT OF OBLIGATION CUZ' YOU LVOE ME.... READ ON. XD

I'm so serious about my fandoms that it hurts. XD

I found an unsubbed and undubbed version of Evangelion number 24. I skipped around a lot and put on on mute because the Japanese voices had a creepy echo problem. When Shinji killed Kowaru (hard to explain that. It's because Kowaru's actually an Angel, which is not really an angel, but that's what the destructive creature thingies are called in the series) I almost DIED. I mean, I ran around the house telling people about it like, "OMG OMG OMG" in a not particularly sad way, and then I rewinded and watched the scene where the held hands, and then I cried. XD Delayed reaction, much?

At least Shinji was in the big robot thingy and didn't have to, like, kill him with his own hands. But the robot thing was sick because Kowaru was so small in the robot's hand, and he didn't even try to fight, he just smiled really sadly. And then there was a looooong moment of nothing and then the screen went black and it was like, CRUNCH. And then in just showed the robots hand, empty, all bloody. Oh God, Shinji muct have hurt so bad. Poor thing. Oh yeah, I know he's not real, but what's the point of books and tv and stuff if you dont get involved in it?

I hate anime. Anime sucks. Especially Full Metal Alchemist and Evangelion. Oh, and you know what book I hate? At Swim Two Boys. I liked it but the ending sucked.

I hate sucky stuff where guys or kids die.

OMG SO CUTE.

OMG MORE SO CUTE.

And this is right before he kills him. UGH.

I hate the Eva people because they might Shinji go in the robot all the time. Cuz he's the only one who can control it and save the world. But they always have to use him, no matter what, even if it traumatizes him, for the good of everything... or something. But Shinji's a MESS. He's seen nearly everyone he cares about die, and now he actually had to KILL the person he loves. OMG. ANIME SUCKS. I love anime, so I guess I just like TORTURING myself. I want to watch a frickin fluff yaoi now where nobody dies. Ugh.

Lol. I suck. Who's gonna read this. I'm gonna draw now.

The yaoi goddess smiles again.

2006-05-10T22:13:00.000-07:00

That's me, the yaoi goddess! . . . Yeah, whatever, I know. *eye roll*

EITHER WAY I have allowed a new pairing into the light of... my greatness. KaworuxShinji, from Evangelion! Even though Kaworu dies during the episode he's introduced in. x_X Cute or no, that pairing is without a doubt the most disapointing yaoi OF ALL TIME. XD

See how cuuuute?

I'm totally spazzed out and it's, like, ten thirty at night. This is bad. x_X Oh, btw, if you happen to know what evangelion is and want to be convinced of this pairing, or whatnot, read this rant. Here. Right here.

Kthnx.

W00t!

2006-05-09T21:55:00.000-07:00

Just noticed that my last post was my 100th post. I should write a book. "How to loose every reader to your blog in 100 posts".

Step 1. Post nothing but rants, crappy drawings, and photo manips. Speaking of the latter...

It's called; Taken Back by Nature. All stock photos came from this site.

LOL

2006-05-08T21:59:00.000-07:00

Pokemon yaoi makes me laugh so hard I cry out my nose.

OMG BROCK/JAMES NOOO. roflmaomfgwtfbbq.

EDIT: I forgot, there's important stuff too. Actually, not important, just slightly less stupid. Haley's wife wasn't at school today so she talked to me. XD It's pretty sad that I'm the back-up friend, but I don't take any personal offence. I found out that the girl with the bleached hair that I goth/cartoonified in this drawing;

is named Ashley. She's actually sort of preppy but her hair and eyeliner is so cool. I can't even talk to her, I'm so shy. x_X Lol. Anyways, I stole her appearence for a drawing, I hope she never finds out. XD Oh, and I drew realism. :SHOCKDIE: It's fricking UGLY though so try not to let your eyes bleed on your keyboard.

Radically different stock image that I copied the lineart from is here.

I'm so sickly. x_X

2006-05-06T09:04:00.000-07:00

I spent half of yesterday throwing up and eating popsicles. XD Luckily, I feel a ton better today. It's like I'd never been sick at all. Still, I feel like I'm walking on a tightrope. I do NOT want to feel like that again.

Lookit what I drew on a piece of cardboard, a couple days ago. I think it might be Yago, from Remnants(by KA Applegate). :3

Btw, I doubt my uncle Dean is reading this, but if he is, I'm sorry I haven't emailed you back. ;_; Typing long messages is hard and I'm lazy and now I've taken longer to reply than you. XD

King of the Rain

2006-05-03T21:14:00.000-07:00

For a yaoi art contest of Sheezyart I drew this. :3 It was going to be my characters, Jay and Twiggy, but Twiggy is too short and neither of them look grungey enough. XD So they're random contraty characters. The challenge was to draw a picture with only two colors, one for each character. I hope I win. (That stuff about winning not mattering is bullpoop. Lol)

Poor Dolly

2006-04-27T09:35:00.000-07:00

Robot, for Illustration Friday.
. . .

Look what she's done to her poor dolly's hair.
We'll just have to throw it away."
. . .

Strangely morbid sentance that popped into my head. x3 I spent SO LONG on this drawing. My hand hurts. x_X I like the way it tunred out though. Strongly inspired by Hagelstram and Aubrey Beardsley.

If you cant tell, it's some kind of life size mecha/barbie thing that some kid destroyed.

Blog Change [EDIT]

2006-04-18T21:04:00.000-07:00

I'm going to change the layout of my blog. :3 I'll be editting it for awhile. Excuse the mess. Have you noticed that the example layouts have blogs that are completely in gibberish, or some other language? I keep noticing the word 'wankeing' in the title. XD

[EDIT] Well, that didn't take long, eh? It's pretty freaking girly. And the Loveless* pictures all over the top of it... @_@ There used to be Loveless pictures in the beackground too but the repeat looked wonky so I took 'em out. How can a show with only one female character (who isn't even in the canon pairing) be so BRIGHT and PINK?

That's the cover of the first manga. Point proven. Anyways, enjoy my new layout, and, um, read my blog and stuff. :3

*for those non-geeks out there, Loveless is an anime that recently came out in America. ^.^ Issu SoubixRitsuka loooove... :girly sigh:

WHOAH man.

2006-04-18T19:30:00.000-07:00

I'm totally rocking out to Shattered and Firestarter with every evidence of enjoyment. This is why I'm not 'cool'. Lawl.

Today I drew Seth and Sabbath (Zeda's characters. Zeda is my idol, so I drew them a few times, and my friend Selah became obsessed. During math class last term she made me draw them in different poses EVERY DAY. I've drawn them so many times it's become as natural as sleeping.) today, because Selah's decided I haven't been working hard enough, apparently. She's be right. I only drew two things I was proud of over break.

Anyways, it's turning out pretty cute. I'll take a picture when I'm done with it. (scanner's broke, thusly nothing of quality posted lately. XD)

"Bite the Big Apple, don't mind the maggots!" -Shattered, The Rolling Stones

CRAP.

2006-04-17T19:05:00.000-07:00

I keep trying to post dramatically charged posts and deleteing them before any of my non-existant readers see them. XD I need to get over myself. I've said it enough to other people, it's time for me to take my own advice.

I'm going to stop moping and draw now. Fer real.

Look, it's me.

2006-04-15T17:24:00.000-07:00

New id thing with my NEW HAIR. A guy named Ron cut it at Great Clips. :3 Isn't it pimp?

Randomly, this is a conversation between me and Nikki on instant messanger.

Nikki: Your face.
Me: Your mom.
Nikki: Your MOM's face.
Me: ...well, you're wearing a stupid hat. (she doesn't wear hats)
Nikki: Well , you're not even wearing a hat!
Me: Ooooh, that was low. ;_;

2006-04-13T16:12:00.000-07:00

I miss school so hard. I missed most of last week, and half a week before that, because of the most gnarly cold ever. Now it's spring break and I would SELL MY SOUL to see all my friends again. I miss my hallway, and Haley and Alisha and Sarah and Rachel and... :rants endlessly:

My only solace is listening to Marilyn Manson. Loudly. It reminds me of Haley. <3

But they took one of my favorite cds off of Napster. (Graceland, by Paul Simon) Maybe the people who run Napster are racist. Or MAYBE they just want to drive me crazy. -er.

It's a conspiricy.

On the bright side, my friend Kim (who's homschooled) came over and spent the night. We argued and played the Sims 2 and then argued about that. XD But that's what we do. It was a really good time. When she first came over it took her three song to finally notice the Marylin Manson cd I was listening to. "... What are you LISTENING to? x_X" She likes pop. And soft rock. And more pop.

On a closing note... this rant makes my day. That is my EXACT Kingdom Hearts pairing diagram. "Riku --> Sora <--> Kairi" Usually I HATE unrequite, but for some reason KH is the exception. Anyways, this rant is for KH1, and not 2, which is okay because my brother CANNOT FINISH NUMBER TWO. So, you say, why dont I play? Well, I don't play video games. Ever. But he does, so he should really suck less. I JUST DRAW THE FANART. BEATING THE GAME IS NOT MY JOB. >.>

RikuxSora is such a canon unrequite. Too bad it's not even on people's radar.

XD -editeditedit-

2006-04-09T00:41:00.000-07:00

I'm giving my newly found uncle the url to this blog, and I'm editting out this last entry because it's completely retarded. -_-;

What to say....

I'm a good person. -thumbsup!-

Kingdom Hearts Rant

2006-04-02T23:08:00.000-07:00

My brother just bought Kingdom Hearts II and I feel that a rant is in order. I mean, the happy kind of rant. Not the angry kind. Don't get me wrong, I LOVE the game, but the makers of it... Square and Disney... are evil marketing geniouses.

Those games attract EVERY kind of audience you can think of. Disney fans are either thrilled or horrified. Final Fantasy fans are just thrilled. Anime fans love it, romance fans love it (SoraxKairie is heavily hinted at) and yaoi fans love it too(RikuxSora is almost just as heavily hinted at!)

My little brother Eric isn't particularly interested in Disney, Final Fantasy, anime, yaoi or romance, or even games in general, but he obsessed over this game long before he bought it. He actually did CHORES so earn enough money for it!

What I mean to say is, I'm head over heels for it. I totally just spent the last hour drawing Riku, Sora and Kairi so I could learn how to draw their clothing. XD

this is my background right now! :obsess, obsess:

Omg, tomorrow morning I have to go to the dentist. Ew, I hate dentists. They take things way too personaly, and it makes them mean.

Dentist: Open wide.
Me: -hesitates, grudgingly opens mouth-
Dentist: -slams sharp plastic bits in my mouth and begins probing around-
Me: Ow, wa ha hech?
Dentist: Pardon me?
Me: 'ochin. >_>
Dentist: You don't take care of your teeth. -proceeds to lecture me in a pouty way, saying the exact same thing every dentist has told me every time I've gone-
Me: -doesn't argue, because of all the sharp tools, my relative helplessness, and complete inability to speak with all the plastic tabs digging into my gums-

EVERY TIME. omgwtf. T_T

Cute dolls!

2006-01-13T16:41:00.000-08:00

I found somebody on Deviantart who makes the cutest little dolls. Here's her galley.

Art Thingies.

2006-01-13T07:11:00.000-08:00

Comic numbah one of the series I've started with Antinon.
Really bright Candi.
Armand and Denis. Me and Antinon want to come up with a really good fanfic that might explain why Denis could still be alive. We love Denis. T_T <3

Also, Antinin drew Mel, the other character in the comic who hasn't been introduced yet.

And apperantly Kiminess, this idol of mine who draws in a very anime/shota style and seems to prefer qauntity over quality(<3), says that she MADE, past tense, an icon for me. She's going to email it to me. I dont know her personally, I just happened to comment on her gallery while she was in an icon making mood. Now, I dont know whether to die from joy because it's by Kiminess or worry about what it is... because it's by Kiminess. Kiminess, recently banned from DA for the second time. Kiminess, that Amanda is afraid of.

That Kiminess. <3

Goodwill Adventures

2006-01-08T12:09:00.000-08:00

Secondhand stuff is the best. I like buying a bunch of cheap, random clothes and seeing how well I can wear them. Today I got a bunch of skirts, a couple blouses, two aphgan sweaters(sp?), cute hair ties, a belt, a scarf, a Billy Joel and Elton John tour shirt, a cherry purse, and a My Little Pony.

Me in some of mentioned clothes; [link]

Tour shirt <3 [link]

Pony and purse [link]

The pony is now named Brietta. The moment I got home and my nine year old borther Max found her, he brought her to me and said, "She is so CUTE!" So I asked him for a name idea, and he said Brietta. I'm not crazy about the name but his enthusiasm was so adorable I had to use it. x3

Ooooh. Things I forgot to say about Goodwill;

1) I saw this strange, badly draw dvd cover. It's for an animated movie called Black Arrow and it's the scariest. thing. ever. Here's the cover! [link] I wanted to buy it so bad to see what was up with lipstick man, but it was three bucks. I thought maybe long haired lipstick man was actually a girl and somebody drew a gotee on him but, nope, nope, plastic wrapper not removed. But THEN, when looking online, I found another version of the cover. No facial hair. wtf? [link] And Antinon pointed out that in the second cover, 'Black' is spelled wrong and the lion logos are missing. o_O

2) Me and my mom were poking around the toy section and we found a nekked GI Joe. My mom snorted and I was like o_O What? so she dragged me away from my brothers, still with the GI Joe, and said, "Look at his hand." I looked. It was posed like he was about to do something with it that we don't talk about in polite company. I laughed so hard I nearly collapsed on the floor in the toy section of Goodwill. LMAO

I drew stuff!
[Jaden and Cory]
[Jaden, Cory and Candi]

Life is Good.

2006-01-05T20:40:00.000-08:00

My best internet buddy Antinon did the sweetest thing for me. For awhile we've been joking around with the idea of My Little Pony yaoi and I've been begging her to draw it. Well... [WARNING! So cutesy it will blow you mind. Okay, click now.] It's my unbirthday present from her. Oh how I adore that girl. We've decided that we're long last twins who're joined at the mind. (even though she's way older than me. Details aren't important!

Speaking of friends, Caitlyn emailed me again. She says that she's into anime and manga, she listens to rock and any other songs that sounds good, she loves magic and vampires, and she wears black. She has a crude sense of humor and likes shows like the Boondocks. How creepy is it that even though we'd been apart for... what, five years? We're still SO MUCH alike.

As for art, I did some of that. [The Collector] Also, I drew eyes for the 100 theme challenge. I've decided to do one themem a day until I finish it, so I'll get in the Hall of Fame and get lots of page views. x3

(I'm so afraid of Korn. I mean, I'm listening to it on my headphones and literally trying to shy away from it like a frightened horse. Anyone else get this? o_O)

Dreadlock Cake

2006-01-02T12:26:00.000-08:00

I <3 doing crazy stuff for my friends. This is for my friend Haley's belated belated birthday, and for all my friends in the Hallway of Doom for xmas. It's a cake with a picture of her crush and stalk-ee, Kyle Walker. He's this polite stoner with crazy dreadlocks that he made by running glue through his hair in eight grade that goes to our school.

[A pic of the pic on the cake]
[A pic of the cake]

It was an issue of pride. I said I would bring the cake and I shall deliver! ^___^

My Frame of Mind

2006-01-02T10:40:00.000-08:00

I gave in and I downloaded the free trial of OpenCanvas 4 on my new computer. That was all the delayed gratification I could take, thankyouverymuch. I spent all of yesterday on [this] drawing, which is a re-attempt at a [drawing] from September. I... think I've improved. o_o

Antinon was nowhere to be found yesterday. I've grown so dependent on her that if she's not on the 'net for a day I get very lonely. T_T

Oh my God. English project. School tomorrow. I couldn't fall asleep until three last night and I'm so exhausted that it's like some kind of comfort drug. I could pass out right here. Well, the project is about Taming of the Shrew, which I'm begining to find hilarious despiter myself. So... maybe there will be TotS art from me soon. ^_^;

>_____>;

2006-01-01T14:13:00.000-08:00

I know nobody reads this blog and all 0% of you watch Noah's Arc, but let me just say... SADNESS ABOUND. Last episode I saw (which may not be the most recent one, I'm not keeping up very well) everyone broke up, except for Eddie and Chance, but Eddie is in the ER on his wedding day. And Ricky made me cry my silly little fangirl eyes out and download the song that kept playing in the backgroung, 'Closer'(no, not the cool Closer by NIN, I mean the stupid sad one). I'm addicted to that bloody song now and I've been listening to it for THREE HOURS.

Any-frickin-ways. Merry New Years.
Sesshomorou for Antinon; [wh00t! grainy pencils]
Younger T-Daimon for Dragoone; [<3]

I gave him wings, and then he said that that wouldn't be good because pyromancers would catch their wings on fire during battle wtfomgoops. >____>;;

Amazing.

2005-12-31T01:16:00.000-08:00

Do you know what's amazing?

The way humans behave differently than all the other creatures in the world. Any other animal going out it's way for another being is just unfathomable but humans do it all the time, sometimes subtly, sometimes dramatically.

Staying up after I'm too tired to think strait to draw a picture for one of my dearest friends; totaly human. You can't get more human than that.

And that's amazing.

New pictures

2005-12-29T21:34:00.000-08:00

With color! [Rainbow] and [Lupe]

The last couple days have been fun, 'cept for the part where our power was out half of yesterday. But Kim stayed over the night before like and we played the SIms 2 with the new expansion packs. And tonight I'm going over to my friend Amanda's house.

Ohhhh, Reapersun has a contest to draw Yaoi Boy and the first three winners get a commision by her. <3 That would make me so happy. But the entries are so good. I could never compete. Oh well. -sigh-

Thinking of buying a t-shirt by Zeda, as seen [here]. They're only fifteen bucks, and it would be my favorite clothing item EVER.

The Internet

2005-12-27T08:47:00.000-08:00

The internet is FABULOUS. In no other way could I be talking to possibly the coolest guy on earth, who happens to be asking my opinion on whether he should wear cologne or cinnamon scent. NO OTHER WAY. We take the internet for granted. Thank God we're not Amish.

Have a Gay Christmas!

2005-12-26T00:26:00.000-08:00

LAWL. Merry=Happy=Gay. Clever me. Anways.

I got a new computer! It's really fast and I also got a printer/scanner/fax machine to go with it. It works really well. I also got the new Charlie and the Chocolate Factory dvd, which I swear to God I will NEVER GET TIRED OF. We made a gingerbread house at my aunt's, and one side of the roof broke so we had to make a new one out of grahm crackers. At my demand we only used two on each side and I nibbled a half-circle out of one side of each. Now it looks like something came crashing through the roof and left a hole.

Can you all say; Glass elevator?

I tried out my new scanner and it works pretty nicely, so I started the 100 Themes Challenge. (More info about the themes challenge here.)

[Hold my Hand]
[Memory]
[Innocence]

God is cruel.

2005-12-23T17:42:00.000-08:00

Proven by these points;

1) When you're in a relationship already, random guys in grocery stores and barber shops seem a LOT hotter.
2) When you're tired, a fifteen pound weight seems a LOT bigger.
3) When you've eaten too much already and you feel sick, tasty food becomes a LOT more available.

See?

On a different note, I actaully colored the picture of Babylon, Eloette, and Yellow. [Cyuuuute]

Lykomg Vacation.

2005-12-19T19:08:00.000-08:00

Vacation break. Today I watched Monty Python and the Meaning of Life, ate a cheesy tortilla thing I made in the microwave, and fought with my tablet. Lost the stylus tip. Found the stylus tip. Still doesn't work right. T_T

Anyways, still no more word from Caitlyn, and... and... -sniff- Antinonconformist says she's going on haitus. (the most dreaded word in the online universe) Who will make me feel special while she's gone?

But, on the bright side, I scanned a drawing I did awhile ago that I really like and added some bland colors in PSP8. Not actually colored, of course. [Like a Family]

The kittyboy mecha is Babylon, the mecha being leaned on by said kittyboy mecha is Yellow, the little girl is Eloette.

<3

I Love Deviantart

2005-12-17T13:20:00.000-08:00

For a long time after joining Deviantart I was discouraged because it's not easy to get comments there. I was really, really disapointed. But unlike sane people I didn't leave the site, oh no, I went into crazy foaming wanna-be artist mode and tried to learn rom all my idols and draw like them. I said tom myself, "Okay, I have no comments on this drawing and she has 96 six comments on that one. I can get there.

It helped, it really did. I got a lot better but what helped even more was the discovery of making friends on DevArt. Antinonconformist has been so sweet to me lately, I feel that I really need to make a link to her. She's so nice and origional and creative, I love her to death. And my first friedn on DevArt ever, Silver-Winged-Demon has put up with my craziness for longer than she ought to have. ^_^;; And T-Daimon is very very cool. And hot. He gets trampled by fangirls daily, and he's vain enough to say it. x3 Anticon loves to tease him, and I can see why. And, of course, my rl friend Amanda is awsome too.

I have more people I want to metnion but I'm tired of typing. And my brother made mac and cheese for everyone but me and I'm hurt. Geez. T_T

My old friend Caitlyn

2005-12-17T11:41:00.000-08:00

In elementry school I had a best friend named Caitlyn Miller. Nobody liked us, and especially Caitlyn (because she sucked on her hair so she had a bald spot on the back of her head) but we didn't care. We dug up and replanted grass at recess and dug holes under the roots of trees, and called them Hobbit holes, and also we tried to emmorise the Spanish numbers 1-10. We thought we were cool enough.

And then in fifth grade she was taken from her family and put into a foster home, so we lost contact. I was very lonely for the rest of the year, and I changed schools in sixth grade. But now I'm in 10th grade, a sophomore, and I just got an email from Caitlyn Miller, wondering if I'm the same Carmen who was her best friend in Elementary school. I have been looking high and low on the internet for her and she found me first. x3

iCreate!

2005-12-15T17:57:00.000-08:00

New layout! Yee! It took nearly an hour and a half to get the background positioned right and over two hours to draw. Oh the things I do on sick days. >_> The rest of the layout is really just premade, because I don't feel like grappling with html.

I drew Yellow, Babylon and Eloette but I can't upload it because like I said earlier, my scanner's not working. I'm going to explain them anyways.

Their story is set in a futuristic Tokyo. Yellow is a mecha doll that Eloette gets for Christmas (mecha dolls are robots designed to look and behave exactly like humans). They're best friends until a few years later, when Eloette is ten. The new fad is fighting mechas, so she asks for one for her birthday. She always gets what she wants and her parents buy her a fighting mecha named Babylon. He's a cat-person mecha, and he is the personification of cat attitude.

Babylon hardly ever talks because his cat-side merits most of his behavior. HE loves to fight and wrestle and tear apart entire couches in three minutes flat, and he'll ignore you unless you adress him, and then he'll probably still ignore you. The only one he's affectionate to is Yellow. This is bad, because Yellow is tremendously bitter at Babylon for stealing Eloette's affection from him.

This is some kind of strange <3 triangle, isn't it? Well, petxowner love. Why is there no word for that? o_O

Eloette <3 Babylon
Babylon <3 Yellow
Yellow <3 Eloette

Lawl.

Off-topic... proof that there are guys in the world who draw really girly anime cutesy things. [link] He's got some looooow self-esteem though. He points out a million things wrong in his picture descriptions and I can nevers see any of them. Poor guy. -patpat- Everyone else thinks you're awsome.

Lookit!

2005-12-15T15:09:00.000-08:00

I wanted to scan some stuff but I couldn't because the scanner isn't working. When I was testing the 'Import from Scanner or Camera' It started getting feed from a webcam somewhere in my dad's room. So I was like, 'Webcam? O_O' And I found it, and I played with it for far longer than a modest person would have. Got pictures!

Me

Me and my kitten, Yoda(female)

Kitten trying to nurse on the back of my head

Kitten

More kitten

Kitten hunting the pointer

(ON ANOTHER NOTE) ROFLMAO!!!111one
You know those things on the bottom of some webpages that count the exact amount of seconds it took the page to load to prove to you that their site is fast? Well, Deviantart has one, and here's what it says.
"The collective rectum has expelled this page in a mere (however many) seconds."
Creative. x3

For Illustration Friday!

2005-12-15T00:19:00.000-08:00

I'm really tired so I'll make this short. I have two entries for [Illustration Friday] and the theme is SURPRISE. IKnowItsNotSupposedToBeAllCapsShutUp. >_>

[Entry One] (already drawn)
[Entry Two] (drawn for the site)

It felt like cheating to just use the unicorn one since I already drew it before I knew the theme. So I made another one. Badly.

Pollus and Pascale

2005-12-13T23:14:00.000-08:00

Lawl! [Cyute] I drew this with seemingly no connection form my brain to my hand. I really don't know what's going on here, except that Pascale is looking up Pollu's skirt and Pollu is like o_O; Even my friend Amanda said that it's cute which is a big deal because she usually disses my guys in dresses. x3

And check out the improvement over my last Klar fanart, [here]. Technical improvement. I don't care that you like the old soft fluffy colors better. People telling me that my old art is better thna my new art HURTS MY SOUL. I don't know how people think it's a compliment, ot that they're making me feel better, or something. Really. Just like the new stuff so I can trick myself into thinking my life is going somewhere.

(BTW, Someone has to comment on my blog sometime. Maybe in two hundred years, but I swear to God I'll still be watching and waiting.)

The Tablet Fairy has it out for me.

2005-12-11T23:18:00.000-08:00

On an off-note, I've listened to the song 'Land Locked Blues' by Bright Eyes over a hundred times since I've downloaded it. Okay, now for the point.

Right after I drew [this] my tablet decided it had enough of me and died. The stylus had already had problems, like the fact that it occasionally stuck and I had to pull the point out and put it back in. Now, it sticks every time I push down hard which sucks because I need to use the pressure sensitivity for the oil paints on OpenCanvas. So, no more art.

And then I went back into my room after leaving it alone for an hour to try it again and THE POINT WAS MISSING. So I scour my floor and desk for twenty minutes and finally find it, and of course it hasn't gotten any better. Dear God, I hate tablets so much.

The bright side of everything is that I saw Narnia with my friend Kim for her birthday and it was good. And also she had good cake, and also we watched all 12 episodes of some yaoi that I remember almost NOTHING about, but I think it was cute. And the anime Angel Sanctuary SUCKS so bad I refused to watch it, because people keep saying that it's yaoi and it's not and it makes my stomache feel all green and gives me de-ja-vu.

And I'm designing a futuristic Tokyo. My mom is adjusting to the fact that whenever she takes me places I follow her around and point out that in future Tokyo, you dont have to drag rolls of fabric across the store and lasers cut SO much better than scissors and old ladies and I need sleep really bad. -_-;;

Goodnight.

-le gasp-

2005-12-09T19:35:00.000-08:00

My friend Haley told me the other day that someone had told her that Marylin Manson is dead. She loves Marylin Manson, although I don't share her sentiments, I would never have the heart to tell her. Anyways, I said 'Don't worry, I'm sure they're lying.' She agreed. But I told her I'd look it up anyways.

KILLED BY RELIGIOUS PROTESTORS.

Lawl, nah. It's a joke page. FREAK OUT. It would be funny to show Haley though. Awsome.

[MM Memorial page] PH3AR.

W00t.

2005-12-09T18:51:00.000-08:00

I just realized how horribly sad my Deviantart gallery is. Because not only do I have very few comments on my drawings, but I don't even have the benefit of PAGEVIEWS. Most people have at least 20 pageviews on each drawing plus a couple favorites, but mine have about an average of 1 fave per drawng and maybe two comments at a streatch, and 15 pageviews with luck.

I really do think I might have been banned and nobody's gotten around to telling me yet. So anyways, I storm out of my room and stand in the kitched and yell at the world in general, "I know the problem! ...Well, one of the problems is that there aren't enough people standing around on the off-chance that I'll say something. But that's not the thing now. The thing is that the only pictures that get comments are fanart!"

That's what drives people to the y!gallery. I know it is. If you can draw better than a seven year old you get heaps and heaps of comments, even if all they say is -drool-. THE Y!GALLERY IS THE BANE OF MY EXISTANCE! I miss Zeda, and Reapersun, and Korone. The garbage is eating them aliiive.

-chill- So I draw cute shounen-ai to be happy again. You can pretend the long haired one is a girl.

Veruca/Charlie? o_O

2005-12-08T18:08:00.000-08:00

[Yeah, seriously.]

In the origional Willy Wonka and the Chocolate Factory, the kids that played in the movie all got together again to do the commentary. They said that the girl who played Violet and the girl who played Veruca had a constant rivalry over the boy who played Charlie while they were filming. SO, being insane, I started pairing up the kids in the new movie. This, actually, is not one of the pairings.

Or maybe it is. I thought Veruca/Mike because I didn't want to put Charlie in one of my crazy pairs. He already has enough crazy pairs from other people. -coffMikeCharliecoff- -chokeWilyCharliechoke- And because I don't like Violet, and Augustus and Mike are out of the question. And then I got confused. And then I drew this. >_>

[UPDATE: It got two comments on Devart! Cool! ^_^]

Quick drawing of my old lion character, Loor. She's wearing a cross because a man came to the jungle to try to teach the animals about Jesus Christ. (inspired by the guy who jumped in the lion's cage at the zoo to convert them x3)

OVER THE MOON, FOLKS!

2005-12-08T15:45:00.000-08:00

YE-AH!

Pros and Cons of Being Robbie
Good comments: 3
Bad comments: 2

Story rerailed, as opposed to derailed, which is was. I have an audience and nobody will tell me otherwise. Fffft. It might take awhile to actualy continue it, thought, because I'm lazy and busy with Christmas art, which I am neglecting. Oh for I am so neglectful.

Gorillaz fanart for Amanda, Scary men in dresses for Haley, cute things and used anime dvds for Sayla, Something with kitties for Nikki(#2), can't think of anything for HannahMindyTaylorAlisha ect ect ect... hard to shop for friends... oh geez, parents and brothers. >_> Bah. Christmas.

Dear God. o_O

2005-12-07T22:38:00.000-08:00

I read this Willy Wonka fanfiction before. I know I did. I read it before the new Willy Wonka came out, and I was reading this fanfiction about two years ago and thinking... "Dear God! I read this before I rented the movie. I didn't understand it. And now I do." But I'm going insane because this angst one-shot is based on the new movie, but I could swear to God I read it before, twice.

Can you say; Cracked?

Finally got my mom to watch the new Willy Wonka movie. She likes the movie and thought it was funny, but she cannot bring herself to like Willy himself. She likes some of the things he does (like saying, "You know why? You know why?" like a little kid.) but overall she doesn't like him. I blame it on the random person online who said in their blog that Willy Wonka reminds them of Michael Jackson. Ruined it for my mom. I wish I could scold them for it, but she cant remember where the blog is.

I just love the new Veruca. Cute little girl pouty face and fake innocent smile... cuter than fluffy little unicorns... Ah, the adorable! It burns my cornias! And Mike was cute in a mean little kid way, and Violet was a little evil but I couldn't help liking her too. Even Augustus Gloop was likeable. I was sorry to see them all go. T_T But I lovelovelovelove Willy Wonka most of all. He is forgiven for everything evil he does, like that plotting, lying expression he has when Augustus gets sucked up the pipe... -glare-

I'm gonna go back to reading weird and badly written fanfiction now. Thank you for your misused time. ^_^

Eloette, Yellow's 'owner'.

2005-12-06T22:03:00.001-08:00

[Been waiting all day for your visit...]

In some-what relation to this, I've changed all Yellow's stuff. He looks the same, with a bit shorter bangs... maybe changing colors too. But his new story is that it's the future, in Tokyo, and these mecha sort of things are sold like very expensive barbies. More like Super Dolfies, but with cheap pink boxes like barbies. Yellow is one of them.

So it's the Christmas season and mecha dolls (which I will think of a better name for) are more popular than Tickle-me Elmos ever were. A rich seven year old girl named Eloette wants Yellow for Christmas, so she walks by the shop every day to look into his gaudy pink cardboard box and tell him that she'll be taking him home soon.

She gets him, and Yellow becomes victom to tea parties and games of dress-up and being forced to reach high places when Eloette cant. Cocute. x3 I think he eventualy gets replaced by a new mecha doll named Babylon, but I'll get to that later. And... if you can't tell, the picture is from Yellow's POV, looking at Eloette from his box in the shop window.

Hello, my loyal followers.

2005-12-06T20:34:00.000-08:00

Went to the library, got the two Willy Wonka books and the Ramona books I haven't read yet. (Romana Forever and Ramona's World). Tried to get Lolita but it wasn't there, also was frowned upon by parental figure. Curse those parental figures.

Cleaned the bathroom. I swear to God it seemed like there was pee in the corner of the OPPISITE END OF THE BATHROOM relative to the toilet. Dear God that was so not worth ten dollars. The mirror is my new best friend. Nobody pees on the mirror.

On a completely different note I wrote a poem.

Tokyo, by Carmen Aistrup
The world was pink and black and white,
and spun with warping neon light,
who's children wandered, sheltered,
shadows, 'gainst a glowing,
Tokyo night.

Cakes, again.

2005-12-04T20:16:00.000-08:00

Muchmuch better drawing of Cakes, the unicorn boy, with new and improved markings.

[Yee!]

I can't believe I drew something. I thought I was going to be lost in Willy Wonka fanfic for weeks. o_O This was partly inspired by a sketch montage that Klar's friend (maker of unicorn Di) put together of Klar's sketches. [So cute it blinds me] I want to steal her nose style, I really do.

XDDD

2005-12-02T16:51:00.000-08:00

Wow.

Robbie's story has gotten;
Flames; 2
Compliments; 1

And the compliment came from my mom. I'll go do something else with my life now. Like draw Denis and Armand again. LykeOmG datz grosse2!!!!!11one.
Yes, well, let me have my insanity, I can't keep it when I grow up. And also, I think I've fallen in love with chatspeak for non-serious use. (see incomprehensable sentance above)

Also, for the sake of the filmakers of Interview with a Vampire and their police record, I forgive them for not getting Denis right. They can now sleep soundly knowing I hold nothing against them for not being perfectly literal to the book.

We just dont condone that kind of thing. In this country.

"Pros and Cons of Being Robbie", Chapter Two

2005-12-01T23:34:00.001-08:00

I'm actually a little embaressed about this chapter, because my shounen-ai tendencies are begining to show. I do think it's pretty realistic, though, because kids are always doing weird things like getting 'married'. I think I followed the thought-process of an eight-year old boy well enough to pull this off but if anyone thinks I flunked it, please speak up. I do love critique, I swear I don't bite.

Or you can read it on my fictionpress account, which loads really. really. frickin. slowly. So if it's not there, it will be eventually.

(And you canNOT say that I'm making my little boy characters gay, because I will insist to my dying days that no matter what I make happen later, this. doesn't. count. Okay.)

...

"Pros and Cons of Being Robbie"
by Carmen Aistrup
Chapter 2: Fifty Cent Proposal

"When did you get married, mom?" Robbie asked his mom, who was sitting on the couch with a cup of coffee while he flipped through a scrapbook on the living room floor.

The scrapbooks have lived on the bottom shelf of the entertainment center for as long as Robbie could remember. He always thought they looked like spellbooks that you would find in an ancient Egyption temple, or pyramid, or something. They were almost scary, but Robbie would never be scared by books.

"Lets see... three years before I had you... I was twenty-six," his mom replied. He looked up at her. She appeared deep in thought. "Long time time ago."

"Yeah," said Robbie. "I miss dad."
His mom nodded. "I do too," she said, and Robbie was surprised. Well, obviously his mom missed her husband, but he had never thought about how his mom felt. He felt bad for her, but at the same time it was nice to know he wasn't alone.

"Oh, those are the wedding pictures, aren't they? Bring it over," his mom said, startling Robbie out of his train of thought.

He brought the book over obediantly and sat down beside his mom. They looked at the pictures together, rarely saying anything, but it was a comfortable silence.

Robbie noticed that his parenst looked happy in every picture. He supposed it must be wonderful to get married, because it would be like being able to watch your favorite show ALL the time instead of only on Wednesdays, or an lifetime supply of your favorite cereal.

"Do you have to be old to get married?" Robbie asked, and his mom laughed. Robbie blushed. "What's funny?" he demanded.

"Nothing. It's just that twenty-six isn't considered old by adult standards. But no. You don't have to be old, you don't even have to be twenty-six, but it helps. It also helps to get the permision of your spouse's parents, which I almost wasn't able to do."

Robbie was stunned. "Why?"

"I was a lot different when I was younger. I was pretty strange... I had some strange hobbies and ideas. And I wanted to travel. And they thought Howard... your dad-"

"I know his name, I'm not a baby," Robbie interrupted.

"Sorry, Rob. I know. Anyways, they thought he was too young for marriage. I was twenty-six but he was only twenty-two."

"That's old," Robbie said matter-of-factly. "Anyways, you don't need them to let you get married. When you're older than eighteen you can do whatever you want."

"I know," his mom said, "But it makes it easier. I wanted his family to like me and treat me like one of them. And they did, eventually."

"How did you change their minds?" Robbie asked, fascinated.

His mom smiled. "I told them that it was okay. If Howard was too young, I would wait. If I was too different, I would change. If I had to spend my Tokyo trip travel money on their grandchildren's college fund, I would do it in a heartbeat. And then they said, go ahead. No waiting neccesary."

"But why?"

"Because I was going to be a good wife and mother, and they could tell. That's all I needed to do," she said. "And now... hey... what's happening... oh no! I think mean mom is coming back!"

Robbie gasped. "No, not mean mom!" He didn't really mean it. It was just part of the game. His mom seemed to puff herself and roared like a loose gorilla. "Bed time, Robbie!" she bellowed. "You'd better get in your room before I WHOOP your butt! Now SCOOT!"

Robbie shrieked in pretend fear and ran down the hall, chased by his mother.

"WHHHHAAAAARRRRRRR!" Robbie laughed as he swerved right into his room and dove into the bed. He hid under his covers and peered out.

It was a tradition they had perfected nearly every bedtime for the past three years. His mom pretended to collapse in the doorway, panting. "What... what happened...?" she said.

She stood up and looked at Robbie, who was still under the blanket. "What a good boy, already in bed at bedtime!"

Robbie giggled. His mom blew him a kiss and Robbie reached out his hand from under the blanket and pretended to catch it. "Good night, Robbie," she said.

"G' night, mom," he said. His mom switched off the light and shut the door. Robbie's automatic nightlight sprung to life. He always hid it under the bed when he had company, and he didn't really need it, but it was comfortable.

He shifted over onto his side and thought about marriage. Robbie wanted to get married. He'd learned quite a bit about marriage from television and decided that he could pull it off just fine. He already knew that he wanted to marry Jack, so he didn't have to date or anything.

He knew that usualy boys married girls, but he had seen a show once called 'First Comes Love' where two guys got married. Anyways, it was probably better. Just love and none of the yicky baby making stuff. And, although he knew better, he couldn't repress the thought that girls had cooties and he probably wouldn't get any cooties from kissing Jack.

He tried to think about it more, but then he fell asleep.

...

Two weeks later, Robbie was trying to run all the way to Jack's house, but it was over three blocks away and he was tired by the second block. He had wanted to hurry because today was very important. He was going to propose.

He wad waited two whole weeks because he'd needed to buy a ring. Every week, when his mom took him grocery shopping, she gave him a quarter to buy a gumball form the candy and toy dispensers. So instead of spending his quarter last week he'd saved it, and this week he bought a ring from the fifty cent ring machine.

He'd taken it out of the plastic bubble because it made it look cheap. That wasn't true; fifty cents was no sum to sneeze at, as Robbie's mom would say.

He finally got to Jack's house and bounced up the porch steps. He banged on the metal screen door, because the other door was always open during the day and the doorbell had been broken since Jack and his family moved in.

Thunder of socked feet from inside the house. Jack sock-slid the last few feet to the door and threw it open with a bang and a grin. Jack had a grin that most adults would think of as the perfect little boy's smile, wide and sincere.

Robbie grinned back. Robbie did not have the perfect little boy's smile. His smile made his nose wrinkle a little bit, and no matter how much time he spent trying to fix it with a mirror, one side out his mouth always went up higher than the other.

"Hi! I rented the Mario game again. We can play later. Hey, why are you here so early? It's before breakfast!"

"Got something important to ask," explained Robbie.

Robbie heard Jack's mom shout from the kitchen, "Robbie, is that you?"

"Yeah, it's me!" Robbie yelled back.

"I'll make you some eggs, too. Do you like scrambled?"

"Yes!"

"Come in so I dont have to shout," she replied.

So Robbie went inside. He and Jack went down the hallway and stopped in the kitchen doorway. "Good morning, Mrs. Phillips, ma'am," said Robbie, very politely. He wanted to be on Jack's mom's good side, and although he thought he already was, he just wanted to be safe.

"Why, aren't you Mr. Polite this morning? Well, you and Jack go play. I'll call you when breakfast is ready."

Robbie was relieved. He could be polite, but it was hard for him and anyways it sounded like Jack's mom was teasing him. Adults are meaner than kids because you could never be sure if an adult's teasing you or not. Sometimes it just seems like it, and sometimes they are and you don't even know.

In Jack's room, the both jumped onto the twin bed and bounced a couple of times before settling down, old bedsprings creaking nervously back into place. Robbie leaned against the wall while Jack leaned over the gap to the tv shelf, fiddling with wires to get his Gamecube plugged back in.

"Hey Jack?"

"Yeah?" said Jack, still messing with the Gamecube.

"Have you ever thought about marriage?" Robbie asked, tentatively. "Like, getting married, maybe."

Jack sat back, apparently satisfied with the octopus of wires. Robbie watched as the game's start screen appeared with some cheerful music, but Jack made no move for the controller. Robbie was glad to have his friend's undivided attention, at last.

"Nah, not really. Why?"

Robbie was nervous. He picked at the blanket he was sitting on. "Will you marry me?" he blurted out, before he lost his nerve.

He wondered if it was going to be like one of those sad movies where the other person said no. He wondered what heartbreak felt like, but he didn't wonder too much. He didn't want to know. The long silence made him worry more. Oh, this is it, he thought. He's gonna say no! "Jack?" he coaxed quietly.

"Yes!" Jack cried, and the next thing Robbie knew, Jack was hugging him. Robbie laughed, relieved. He felt like saying thanks, but nobody did that in movies.

"Oh! I almost forgot!" Robbie said, and dug into his pocket. He pulled out the ring and put it on Jack's finger. It didn't fit on his ringfinger, but it was perfect on his thumb. It was probably the best ring in the machine, Robbie thought boastfully, except for maybe the fancy ring in the middle of the display that nobody ever got.

It was a silver band with a little pink stone in it. It was simple but nice. Robbie hoped Jack wouldn't think it was too girly.

But apperently he didn't, or if he did he didn't care, because he leaned over and kissed Robbie on the cheek. Robbie was stunned, but happy, and embaressed. He blushed.

"Boys! Breakfast's ready!"

They both hopped off of the bed and ran out to eat. Because Robbie didn't know what was expected of people who where engaged, other than have the wedding, he and Jack just played video games for the the rest of the morning. And that was alright, because Robbie liked video games.

Because I update too much.

2005-11-30T16:57:00.000-08:00

Can't finish my picture, because the file is on strike. I can change layers and zoom in and stuff but it will not let me put a mark on it. I've tried everything. I just have to hope it goes back to normal later, but I'm not hoping too hard, because I drew better stuff today at school.

A nice guy named Tim commented on my blog. His blog is here, and somehow I suspect that he's my older, more responsible kindred spirit. Like me once I've worked out my strange obsessions and phases, like my yaoi-complex. (don't ask, don't ask.)

The rest of this post it retarded, and only a fun read if you a) like yaoi or b) apreciate girly men characters or c) are my mom, in which case you have every right to read on because I may stupidly refer to it later and expect you to magically know what I'm talking about.

I made a character. He's my yaoi muse, like Korone's Salomon. (who is man enough to wear reallyreally short skirts!) His name is Yellow (based on my secretname. Shoosh, you don't know about it! o_O) He has tatoos on his face that say yaoi, one going up on the left side of his face and one going down on the right side. He has purple/silver hair (most of the time) and wears lots of black kitty faces, on hairclips and purses and earings and things. Black cat obsession based on my friend Amanda.

He has a new style every week, which often comes with a new boyfriend. Nobody actually knows his origional haircolor, not even himself. He has new names for himself quite often. Not even his strait best friend, Ryo, knows his true name. Most people call him Yellow unless otherwise instructed. He likes looking like a girl, but doesn't want to be one. He's like Gackt, the androgynous Japanese popstar with the legions of drooling fangirls. Except that Yellow's not a popstar, and he has fanBOYS.

I will scan him later. I adore him, although all my friends could care less. Except maybe for Haley who I love because she's the only one who's degraded enough to see eye to eye with me. We have vague discussions about Interview with a Vampire using fancy Japanese words so that out other friends can only speculate.

Although that's not giving my other friends credit. Hannah is crazy fun, because today she brought a yaoi roleplay or something to school which she gave to my me and Haley and Alisha. A dead silence falls over us as we huddle around, passing papers around and reading over eachother's shoulders. Amanda, pinapple that she is, (brunette on the outside, blonde on the inside, but we love her) hovered around us and trying to read it.

So finally we finish and I go, "Hannah, just give it to her." So she hands it to Amanda, who sits down and promptly proceeds to READ IT OUT LOUD. A bunch of kids and a teacher walk into the hallway where we hang out and we all basically tackle Amanda, snatch the papers out of her hands, and try to ignore the way the strangers were staring us. And then Amanda goes, "I don't get it. Which one was a girl?" and other comments that literally had Hannah and me and Haley rolling on the floor laughing. More strange looks from random people.

Priceless. I wish I could stay right there in that hallway with my friends forever.

OMG. Midnight discoveries...

2005-11-30T01:04:00.000-08:00

...sounds like a bad porn title, but is really what I just realized about art. I was drawing this guy on OpenCanvas, and for no reason I decided to add a little purple around the eyes, makeup or something. And it looked nice. So I added some random purple to the arm. And it was good. So I splotched purple everywhere for shading, and added more colors, and made things darker and changed hues wildly (which I usally NEVER do) and then made two realizations.

a) Contrast and different colors for blending is good, and I will never color the same way.
b) It was one am. Another late night. -sigh-

By the way, my mum bought be Fruits as an early Christmas pressie. It's a glossy picture book that is completely made up of photographs of Japanese peple in crazy awsome clothes. Poeple who's outfits are unique, fashionable, or just homemade are featured. It's fantastic refference for poses, names, oufits(of course!) and hair.

Okay, gotta sleep now. More to post tomorrow. 'night, all.

"Pros and Cons of Being Robbie", Chapter One

2005-11-28T23:32:00.000-08:00

Okay, everybody! The REAL start of my Robbie and Jack story. The story is really about Robbie, actually, and it's called "Pros and Cons of Being Robbie". Is the title too long, do you think? I intend to have an explanation for it later in the story.

I think this chapter came out quite well. I eventually realized the reason my other attemps at this story (which I didn't post, because they didn't come out well) failed. I wrote too much about Jack, and when writing from a child's point of view it's important to not have other characters take a a major role consistantly, because you loose the self-centered child veiwpoint. That being said, I needed to reread "Ramona and Beezus" to safely get through the later chapters, where Jack will need to play a major role.

I'm taking all my insperation and assistance from the Ramona books, by Beverly Cleary. I've always loved those books and I've collected all of them, so this project is really fun.

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"Pros and Cons of Being Robbie"
by Carmen Aistrup
Chapter 1: The Umbrella

Robbie didn't like the rain and he didn't like walking to school. He listened to the tapping of rain on the kitchen window monday morning and concluded that it was an omen that he would have a very bad day.

He stalled for time, stirring his oatmeal (plain oatmeal, not even the cinnamon flavored kind. Another bad omen.) for much longer than he needed to cool it off. He willed himself to come down with a sudden cold so he could stay home from school. Robbie liked staying home sick, when he could watch cartoons and eat soup all day, and his mom stayed him from work with him.

"Hurry up, Robbie. You have to go in five minutes," his mom reminded him.

Robbie sighed and ate his oatmeal as slowly as he could. It was flavorless and mushy, but he knew that if he didn't eat it he would get hungry later and then he would be sorry.

It was time to go before he knew it. He trudged to the door, drawing out every step as long as he could.

"Wait!" his mom called, and Robbie's hopes soared. They fell and crashed, though, when his mom simple handed him a bulky pink and yellow object. Robbie mentaly pictured his hopes crashing into a window like a bird.

"Huh?" he said dully.

His mom sighed and snatched it from him. Robbie didn't like that, it made him feel like a little kid who didn't know anything. She clicked a button on the handle and pushed up. An umbrella bloomed from the bundle of loose fabric and flexible poles.

"An umbrella?" he asked.

"Of course! I bought it last week. I wouldn't let you go out in this weather without one. Now, scoot," his mother said, all but pushing him out the door. Robbie stood on the doormat in the rain, safe and dry under his umbrella. He liked the sound the rain made when it hit the fabric. Patpatpatpat. Robbie smiled.

He enjoyed the walk to school. It wasn't very cold, especially since he was nice and dry. He began to doubt that the rain had really been a bad omen after all. He twirled the umbrella and looked up, hypnotised by the way the wires were spinning and twisting with silver light.

As he get to the school he twirled the umbrella faster, because he wanted everybody to see how lucky he was. To Robbie's dismay, however, several other kids also had umbrellas. He didn't like them taking away from his glory.

"Robbie's a girl! He has a girl umbrella!" shouted Tod from acrooss the schoolyard.

Tod was usually one of Robbie's friends, but he loved to tease people. Kids that Robbie didn't even know began to laugh at him. Robbie blushed furiously.

"It is not!" He took it down to eye level and inspected it suspiciously. It was pink, with little yellow ducks around the border. It was a girl umbrella, but he would never be the one to admit it.

"It is! Robbie's a girl! He has cooties! Better run!" Tod yelled.

Robbie knew knew that eight year olds were far too old to be saying that people have cooties, but of course the other kids couldn't resist joining in the fun. As Robbie neared the school building, the children ahead of him ran, shrieking, "Cooties! Cooties!" Robbie tried to ignore them, but it was hard.

The door was open, because Mrs. Crowden never made them line up outside in the rain. Robbie went inside and stuffed his backpack into his cubby by the door. He realized, suddenly, that he didn't know how to close his umbrella. He went and sat in his seat, setting the umbrella on the floor beside him.

The classroom began to fill up and the girl who sat in front of Robbie turned around. "You know," she said, "It's bad lcuk to have an open umbrella inside."

"I don't believe in bad luck," said Robbie to save dignity, but really he did, and he was worried. Was it seven years of bad luck, like breaking a mirror? Seven years seemed like an impossibly long time to Robbie.

"I don't care if you get bad luck, but don't say I didn't warn you." She turned around and nobody said anything else to Robbie until the bell rang.

"Merry monday, everybody!" Mrs. Crowden greeted them.

A few people muttered back, Merry monday, but the girl who sat in front of Robbie spoke up. "It's only merry for Christmas," she said. Know-it-all, thought Robbie.

"Well, maybe you're right, Jenny. But merry means 'happy', so I think that sounds about right. Happy monday?"

Jenny nodded agreeably. Robbie was tired. The warm air of the classroom was comfortable and he started nodding off, his chin dropping to his chest and then back up quickly, only to repeat itself. He was always sleepy on Mondays.

"Robbie?" Robby's eyes snapped open and his head jerked up.

"Would you please close your umbrella and put it away? It's blocking the aisle," Mrs. Crowden said.

"Oh," said Robbie. He leaned over and fumbled with the umbrella. After nearly half a minute of fiddling with it and getting frustrated he sat up and mumbled, "I can't."

"What was that?" Mrs. Crowden prompted.

Robbie took a deep breath. "I don't know how to close it."

The entire class erupted into laughter. Robbie wished that he could just crawl into his desk and disapear, like it could turn into a tunnel to his house. He wondered if he would get in trouble if he just walked right out the door and went home.

But then he would be a cowardly little kid, hiding under a girl umbrella. Tears of self pity stung his eyes. Why did his stupid mom have to give him that umbrella? Robbie would have rather walked in the rain if he had known this was going to happen.

Jenny got out of her seat and grabbed the umbrella. She snapped it shut with a sharp little 'click' and a muffled sounding 'whoomph'. She handed it back to him with a look of distaste.

"Thanks alot, Robbie," she whispered sarcastically, "Now I'm going to have bad luck too."

Robbie bristled, too proud to apologise or even thank her. He took the umbrella to the cubbies and shoved it in. As he made his way back to his seat he could feel everyone's eyes on him. A painful lump had grown in his throat.

"Thank you, Jenny," said Mrs. Crowden, who then looked at Robbie like she was disapointed that he hadn't said it first. Robbie sat down and stared glumly at his desk.

The day seemed to go very slowly to Robbie. It seemed to him that everywhere he looked, someone was whispering or pointing at him and giggling. They had indoor recess that day because the raining hadn't stopped.

Instead of playing with Troy and Tod like he usually did, Robbie very quietly read a book at his desk. He hoped that maybe Mrs. Crowden would notice that he wasn't being rowdy and noisy, and forgive him for not thanking Jenny. Mrs. Crowden was the nicest teacher he'd ever had, he didn't like not being on good terms with her. She didn't seem to notice, though.

The day dragged on until the last bell finally rung. The class stampeded to the cubbies and out the door. Robbie grabbed his backpack and umbrella with a sick feeling in his gut and left the room. Tod was standing outside, waiting like a vulture.

"Girly girl! Girly girl!" he taunted. Robbie could easilly imagine Tod as a vulture, crowing insults while circling the highway. He smiled at the thought. Nobody else joined Tod in teasing Robbie, apparently they'd had enough of that for the day.

The rain had stopped just before school let out, and everything was sparkling. Robbie was in no mood to yell at Tod, so he ignored him and walked across the schoolyard. As he made his way to the gate he tried to hide the awful umbrella behind his backpack.

He was pleasantly surprised when he reached the gate. Jack stood by the fence, head down, hands dug deep into the pockets of his oversized sweatshirt. Robbie grinned.

All the heartbreaks of the day were forgotten as Robbie ran to meet his best friend. "Jack! What are you doing here?" he yelled.

Jack looked up and returned Robbie's grin. "I finished all my work early," he said, "So my mom said I could come meet you."

Jack was homeschooled. Robbie thought that he would not like to be homeschooled, stuck in his boring house all day. It would be like endless homework. Anyways, he would miss the school lunches, especially the chicken nuggets.

"Cool," he said as he caught up to Jack. Jack saw the umbrella almost right away and grabbed it before Robbie could stop him. He fiddled with it for a moment beofre snapping it open. He looked it over and held it up.

"Nice umbrella. Did your mom buy it?" Jack asked, and Robbie nodded. Robbie looked behind him, worried that Tod would see.

"You can close it now, you know. It's not raining," Robbie said, trying to get Jack to shut it before anyone saw.

"I like it. Can we just walk to my house with it open, please?"

Robbie took one look at Jack's pleading face and couldn't say no. It wasn't like the teasing could get any worse, anyways. "Okay," he said, "But we have to close it before we go inside. It's bad luck to have an umbrella open inside."

"Oh, I know that," said Jack. He held the umbrella above his head with one and and grabbed Robbie's hand with the other.

As they walked home, talking about nothing important, Robbie barely even thought about how silly they looked.

-fangirl battle cry-

2005-11-28T20:37:00.000-08:00

Dany and Dany's fanlisting just put out these cute little pixel dolls of D&D's characters.

I used to dislike these guys, but their angst has grown on me.

Armand! When the rest of their vamp chronicles ones are up and the Lestat doll is less stupid, I'll post them too.

And these cute little buggers, who look just like Lestat, Louis, Marius and Armand, but aren't really. They're form Dany and Dany's humor manga, Wishing for the Moon, which I may not read, due to minorness. -angsy expression of unfairness-

Fame and Fortune

2005-11-28T18:53:00.000-08:00

Well, maybe not fortune. But my goal in life it to be well known enough that someone, somewhere, will say to another person, "Hey, have you seen that anime, Victory Song?" and the other one will say, "Oh, yes, but only the first three episodes," and the other will say, "Oh, alright, I'll lend to discs two and three!" And I will cry tears of joy as I watch them through my imaginary crystal ball.

I want Tyler Bane to have legions of slobbering fangirls, I want people to cry for Benji as his horrible past is revealed by flashback, I want Robbie to be the new Ramona, I want, I want, I want. I want people to write fanfiction, horrible fanfiction, where Jamie dies and Theo gets depressed and falls in love with some random male prositute and I will laugh and cry because some sadistic part of me has always wanted to do that to them. I need people to pay me fifty dollars per commission, one character digital colored on a plain background. I want twenty for a full body sketch, ten for a head shot. I want to be hired by Yaoi Press.

I want to be famous in the Y Gallery, and then so famous I can leave that horrible site in the dust. I want to found an exclusive yaoi gallery for only the artist's I admit, serious artists with real skill, because I'll have real skill. And then I'll write a manga series, a really famous manga series, better than Gravitation. I'll make a anime movie called Beautiful Souls and people will cry in the theater. I will do all this only in my dreams, but I really truely think... I cn get that much for commisions. Someday.

My realistic list of goals?
*Make someone cry while reading something I wrote.
*Make someone laugh while reading something I wrote.
*Get fifty dollars for a commision.
*Get twenty dollars for a full body sketch commision.
*Have a fan so loyal she'll send me a ragdoll of one of my characters. x3

These are my dreams.

EDIT: On another note, I'm addicted to Charlie and the Chocolate Factory, and I do mean the new one. Both me and my mom had some doubts about it (she flat out refused to watch it, until near the end) but it was amazingly good. I mean, amazingly. Even my mom agrees. Although earlier she asked me if I was doing pot because I accidently called it 'Willie Wonka and the Charlie' and shortly afterwards mistook the word 'antelope' for the word 'androgenous'.

It knows me.

2005-11-26T15:51:00.000-08:00

Red hook, Brooklyn to be more precise.

You Belong in New York City

You're an energetic, ambitious woman.
And only NYC is fast enough for you.
Maybe you'll set yourself up with a killer career
Or simply take in all the city has to offer.

What City Do You Belong In?

Spread the Love!

2005-11-26T15:00:00.000-08:00

One of my favorite artists on Deviantart, whom I've known since the got an account there, is so very nice to me. She made whole journal post to advertise me, and gave me lots of lovely comments with CRITIQUE! She's so sweet, she gave me critique! ^_^ Go to her gallery and give her nice little comments like she caused other people to give me. [Silver-Winged-Demon]

Since people are giving out love today, I'd like to pass it on. Firstly, Zeda whom I've loved for such a long time, and I once made a ragdoll for. She deserves fame. Also, Spiritwolf77. I studied her drawings for hours and hours to learn to draw anthros like her, and although I'm hardly half her skill level, I'd like to think I've learned a lot from her.

And Sora Lover (because I dont know her real name and... well.. she loves Sora!) and Tessadafox, two nice people who commented on my pictures.

I want everyone who reads this to spread the love, and dedicate a post on your blog or website to someone who's artwork you enjoy and want other people to enjoy as well. Get blogging!

I draw too much post.

2005-11-25T17:01:00.000-08:00

Aaaaand... four hours later... [worst thing I've ever drawn]

Mediocre at best picture of my veryvery old character, Tailowallow. [Whee, Spiritwolf77 ripoff style!]
On the bright side, my version of mediocre 2 and a half moths ago... [OMG XDDDD]

PSP8? Is that some kind of laundy detergent?

2005-11-25T00:17:00.000-08:00

I just downloaded the free trial of opencanvas 4 and it is AMAZING! I was coloring the eyes with a light green, and I was like, "WTF?! >_< Why is it dark green?" And then I slowly realized that it was blending. I love it. I drew a kitsune guy, but it looks bad, because I suck. But with the aid of my precious, I will improve! BTW, the title of this post is because of the inferiority of my old program Paint Shop Pro 8.

I Love Anne Rice

2005-11-24T12:13:00.000-08:00

I emailed Anne Rice and she replied. The very next day. O_O I asked her if she was ever going to bring Louis back, and my answer gives little hope. Actually, no hope. But I'm very happy for her, anyways. She's a great person.

"I write only about Christ the Lord now. My return to faith has been a
joyous thing, and a hard thing to describe to anyone who, like me in
the past, can't imagine the sheer beauty of conversion. The characters
of the chronicles are dear to my heart because they are emblems of my
long search for God, when all I could cling to was the beauty of life,
the laws of the Savage Garden as Lestat called them. But I am home now
and I want to bring to life Jesus Christ for my readers. That's all I do
now. I'm one of those glaze eyed converts one meets. It's sublime.
Take care, Anne."

I told her I was very glad for her, and on a sidenote, asked if she might lift the ban on Vampire Chronicles fanfictions now that she wasn't going to write about them anymore. I have more to ask her but I forgot, so I guess I'll have to wait until she replies. By the way, I'm in a permanent fit of glee because th album Pretty Hate Machine by NIN is back on Napster. YEE!

Personality Generator

2005-11-23T22:53:00.000-08:00

I found the most awsome site ever to assist in creating Robbie and Jack. It's a character generator, and I wont explain how it works, because that's explained on the site. It's for characters you know you need but don't have any strong ideas for. I used it for Robbie and Jack, and I came out with these results, some changed to fit a few of my preset ideas for them.

Jack
Jack Phillips

Altruist - A character with this trait has an unselfish interest in the welfare of others. Beyond merely caring for other people this character would hold the welfare of others above his own interests as a principle. (Jack's mother, though not strict in any way, always bemanded that he treat others how he would want to be treated. Jack wants to be treated like his mom treats him, and she's so generous and loving that he couldn't help but pick up on some of it.)

Genial - Cheerful and kindly, your character is most gracious to others and a very friendly sort. (After Jack got past his terrible twos, he realized that being nice was much easier than being mean, because if you're not going to get what you want either way, it's better not to waste a buch of time being mean.)

Impetuous - Impulsive in nature. Your character may make rash and emotional decisions. Your the girl who sees the lever and pulls it while saying, "What's this do?" (It seems that everyone in the world says, "follow your heart" and Jack has yet to experience the kind of heartbreak that comes from it, so he's all for the idea.)

Meticulous - Extremely careful in attending to details. Your character wants things done right and usually wants it done right the first time. Measure twice (or five times) and cut once is her motto. (Jack's mother also says, "If you're going to do something, do it right or not at all.")

Clumsy - A clumsy character may be described as accident prone. The character will trip over, bump into, and drop things (Jack's a quick little boy, and his mind often runs ahead of his body, causing him to take two steps back before he can take one step forward.) [On another note, soemtimes people think he's slow because he takes a moment to reply, but really he's so fast that he has to take a step back to deal with you.]

Food Fetish- There is one particular food item your character can just not pass up. Be it chocolate, tarts or even spicy sausages. He might take silly risks or go miles out of his way to procure a fresh backed tart. Your character probably tends toward other addictive behaviours as well. (As a baby, Jack's mom would always give him frozen chocolate bars to gnaw on with his baby teeth to keep him happy and occupies, so now he has a chocolate addiction)

Musically Inclined- Your character has a love of music and at least some ability to back it up. Though, it may require training in the skill to get there. She may prefer singing to an instrument. (When nothing else is being said, Jack sings. Like other people hum and whistle, he sings entire songs he's heard on the radio, and he memorizes songs extremely fast.)

Robbie
Robert Harper

Rapscallion - Your character is a little rascal, a little rogue and a little ne'er-do-well. He's likely to be very charismatic and maybe even playful and mischievious. (When his father was alive he would teach Robbie practical jokes and such, and now he's keeping up the tradition because he never wants top forget.)

Rover- Your character has a touch of the wanderlust. He never likes to stay too long in one place and is much happier out on the open road living where ever he happens to stop rather than settled down in a home of his own. (Completely adventurous, the further away from home an adventure takes him the better. The bigger the risk, the bigger the thrill. Unfortunately he was not blessed with any sense of navigation at all, so Jack sees that it's Robbie's duty to plunge recklessly into the unknown, it's his duty to remember were the exit sign is.)

Impudent - Contemptuous of others, cocky. Your character may be described as being insolent as well as impertinent. (His mother never told him off for disobeying and ignoring her, because she found it easier to just let it slide. It caught up to him and he believes that he's always right.)

Short-sighted- Your character doesn't see the far reaching affects of his actions and decisions. May have a very narrow view of situations as well since they can't seem to discern any consequences in most things. (Serious lack of time-outs)

Curious - Having a compulsive desire to investigate and learn. The unknown must be known, the confusing understood. Ifthis character hears a noise in the dark or out of sight, smells something, sees a flash of light in the woods, hears a legend or rumor, etc. they will have an urge to investigate. (Inexplicable, probably gets it from his dad. His dad was his idol)

Opinionated- Arguing with your character is like arguing with a brick wall. Your character is set in his ways and will happily try to convince everyone of the veracity of his point of view. You probably enjoy arguing and may not realize how frustrated others are with you. (He's a little brat. what can i say? This isn't to say he's prejiduced, though. Being un-prejiduced is one thing his mother always insisted on, but if people have contradicting opinions, Robbie will latch onto one of them and not let go for anything.)

Remembrance Item- A special item that your character treasures and always has near him, or perhaps keeps it underlock and key in his home or vault. Its a reminder of some past event that left a mark on your characters life. It might be the personal possession of a dead friend or parent; some token from a lost love; perhaps a flower from the garden of the women you loved who married another when you chose a life of adventure. (He has his father's fishing hat. His dad used to be a great fisherman, anything form the river to the sea, and he'd even gone shark fishing a few times. he used to take Robbie on his more tame fishing trips and promised to take him fishing on a boat in the ocean one day.)

'I don't post enough' post

2005-11-23T11:25:00.000-08:00

Truth be told I forgot about this blog for a little while. I realize I have to post something but I've been lazy and hanging out with friends the last week or so(and making Queersville on the Sims 2, but that's a different story.) and I don't have anything to show. I will, however, say that I've finally watched all thirteen episodes of Gravitation, in Japanese, with English Subtitles. I don't want to give away they end but... poor Yuki. No wonder he's so cold. T_T Oddly, though, I predicted it three episodes early. I know the signs. I know the signs! Okay, I'm chill now. And, you know, I think I have a deep rooted desire to see The Velocity of Gary again, that crappy one star movie that I caught on Logo awhile back. Because... of this qoute!

"Gary dreams about kissing someone so hard his mouth hurts. He dreams about kissing someone so soft his heart hurts, so long his neck hurts, so deep his throat hurts. Gary dreams about kissing someone so completely that nothing hurts." -The Velocity of Gary

I <3 it too peices.

And... I did write something, but I totally forgot. So, I either post this, or the BS story (actualy stands for 'Beautiful Souls' but it can go a couple ways) and believe me you'd be begging for this one if I gave you the other. Alright! I don't think there are any fatal flaws in this, except that it's in the wrong POV for the rest of the story, so i'll rewrite it eventually. -cowers from helpful critique like the pansy that I am-

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"Mrs. Phillips, I'm asking you for permission to marry your son."

Betty Phillips finished fastening a blouse to the clothesline and looked down. A very serious little boy's face stared back up at her, big green eyes with a smattering of freckles between them. A bandaid was stuck inexpertly on his forhead and his cropped red hair stuck up wildly, mostly on the left. Betty was tempted to smile, but she didn't want him to think she was laughing at him.

"Well, Robbie, you seem a little young for marriage. Do you know what marriage means?" she replied, just as seriously as he adressed her.

He shuffled his feet and appeared to think about it for a moment. "Yes, ma'am. It means I will love Jack all my life, in sickness and health, for richer or poorer, 'till death do we part." He looked proud about having remembered.

"Well, do you think you can do that?"

Robbie nodded.

"And you don't want to wait, and maybe marry a girl?" se inquired. She really had no idea that Robbie intended to marry her son before now, but it couldn't hurt to play along. Kids and their funny ideas, she thought and chuckled inwardly.

Robbie scruched up his nose in an expression of disgust. "Girls have cooties."

Betty finally allowed herself to laugh. "If you really want to marry my son, Robbie, I can't see any reason to stop you. You're a good boy. But you take care of him, now, you hear?"

Robbie beamed. "Don't worry, Mrs. Phillips, I will! Forever and ever!" With that he turned on his heels and darted off, his sneakers making slapping sounds on the sparse lawn. "Jack! Jack, she said okay!" she heard him say as he disapeared into her house, the screen door banging shut behind him. Betty wonders if he'll remeber his commitment for more than a week. She smiled and continued pinning wet laundry on the line.

Fanfiction Connoisseur

2005-11-19T23:15:00.000-08:00

Author's Note; Fluff about be being an grammer halk and tolerant yet picky reader. Completely true story. Absolute waste of five minutes of your time. You have been warned.

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A girl sits at a computer, frantically pounding on the screen with her fist and screaming, "Commas! Why don't you Believe in commas?!" After awhile she ceases her tanrum and continues reading with a distant look on her face. Every so often she would say "Add a comma," and read on. At one point during her reading she pumped her fist into the air and shouted, "They're recovering! If I'm not mistaken, that is a comma!" she continued reading but in another moment the grin faded from her face. "Okay, grammatically that ought to be a period. On the bright side, though, they have proved that their keyboard has a comma key!"

In another ten minutes the lifeless expression drains form her face. She cringes, then smiles, then pouts, as if to test her range of emotions lest she forget how to use them. "That kind of sucked. And I didn't read the last three paragraphs, because didn't make any sense and nothing was happening. And the... commas," she says the last word ominously, as if speaking of something dreadful. A few rapid clicks of the mouse and her blank expression returns as she moves onto the next one.

Shortly, however, she makes a face of pure disgust. One would think she might be repulsed by something vulgar she was reading, but her friends will deny that to be the case. "For the love of God, woman, capitalize your i's!" She says it with the same connatation as someone scolding someone for not being properly dressed. She seems to realize this, because she says, "I sound like my teacher. You know, the way she says improper fraction like it were a personal insult." The girl looks at her lamp, then at the sleeping tabby on her bed, then back at the lamp. It looks like she can't decide who she's talking to.

"I wonder," she muses out loud, "If anyone else reads fanfiction as vocally as me?"